Why am i torturing , hurting and making my life miserable??
tOday went to his ah ma de house...his father bought KFC and pizza...after tat jiu take 147 go home...in the bus think alot alot...LOL...was trying to ren my tears...-__-"...was asking myself this question...why am i making my life miserable...why cant i jus come out wif an ans...why i only noe how to hurt ppl...why i always say no one can gif me the stuff i wan...why i always say no one understand me...
maybe is ca i don even understand myself tats why?? i don understand why do i have to think everyday...why the stuff i wan like veri hard to get like tat?? am i really asking for too much?? why ppl will like me...ca i good hearted ca my looks not bad...or ca jus wanna fuck...i really donno siar...why ppl so weird de...both guys and gals...
am trying veri hard to catch my breath...my chest feel so tight...my heart feel so empty...my heart feels like it's been locked up...maybe i should listen to wat sky told me...i asked him some question and he say i should take a break and let my broken heart heal first den fall in love again...maybe i should listen to wat he say??...and yes am still young there is no rush in finding a bf...but i jus nid someone to pei me almost everyday...i noe ur will think frens can wat...but all my frens is guai guai de...all cant go out de or can hardly go out if not is cant go out till late late...den will only ask me out when they nid me...example...one of my I.T.E fren...quarrel wif bf den don wanna stay at home ca don wanna anyhow think den will ask me out de...if not wont de...call also wont call msg also wont msg...only when quarrel wif bf den will come find me...
so i asked myself thing...if i take a break...can i accept being alone??? i don think i can...i nv been alone before...as in at outside eat alone...go window shopping alone...i find it so stupid to go shopping alone...ca if i like something i cant like tell my fren this thing nice rite...and am i super shy person...if i alone and i donno how to go to this place...i rather i go missing den i ask ppl for the way to the place...see wat i mean by i cant be alone??...nvm only i understand myself...LOL...crap ofca i understand myself am me...-__-...wat ever...am jus crapping...
so maybe i should jus let go of both of them...and currently stay single??...aiyo..i donno lah...am so confuse...this is the 3th time i think till head veri pain...like my head wanna bomb...save me someone?!?!...HELLO!!! anyone out there?!?!...hope someone is out there to save me...hahax...LOL...
LOL...wanted to upload the pic i took of me hurting myself...but i delete it den i went to paste it at other folder i forget cant delete den paste...LOL...so it looks like i got to say out wat i did to myself...there is blue black ony my rite knee, 2 blue black on my rite index and midder finger...my head got baluku...my left wrist got my scratch mark and 3 penknife cut...and tat is the first time i bleed the most...the blood was like auto flowing out...but heng stop...if not i now cant sit infront of my com write blog liao...LOL...
anyways...tats all for today...tata~
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