kill me pls someone...am dying inside...i really donno wat i wan...let go or choose one...problem is haix...now de me i really feel like i don have the rite to love anyone...i don even noe how to love myself...am hurting myself...i can feel the pain in my heart...it really hurts...
are u really tat good..??...why my bro and mother say till like ur so good...i really donno...so wat if whenever u tok to her i will jealous...ur jus doing it infront of me...and ur giving her everything tat i wan from u in the past...do u noe how it feels when u got to see wat u wan being given away rite in front of ur eyes...and u actually believe wat ever tat she says...wat she nid u gif her...me leh...she nid a listening ear u be her listening ear...i leh...where the fuck are u when i nided u...do u noe because i keep everything to myself tats why today i cant say out my true feelings and thinking...i wish to put all the blame to u...but i cant...i really don wanna be selfish anymore...but can i help it...no i cant...am starting to cant control my emotion...am going crazy soon...
am veri clear...no matter i go wif who i also wont be happy...ca i can nv gif ur wat ur wan...and wat i wan ur might not be able to gif it to me...maybe is ca i asked for too much...i donno...i don understand myself...i really don understand...
there is a wall infront of me...stopping me from me doing wat i wan...i really donno wat to do...i wanna stop all this hurt soon...i wanna stop all this thinking soon...i wanna stop all this stress soon...i hate now de me...i hate the feeling i have in me now...it suxs...
i hide all my tears...
i will nv cry infront of u...
i don wanna let u see the fallen side of me...
but u think am so strong...
jus because i nv cry infront of u...
i hate being alone...
u noe i hate being alone...
but why do u still throw my aside...
even when i most nidded u...
do u noe it hurts to cry alone...
do u noe it hurts when i have to keep everything to myself...
do u noe it hurts when i have to act like am so happy when am not...
do u noe the feeling of u got to tell urself everything...
do u noe the feeling when u nid someone there for u...but there is no one out there for u...and all u can do is cry and cry and cry like an helpless ass...
as time goes by...
i will slowly wake up from my nitemare...
my heart will slowly heal...
my tears will slowly dried up...
my smile will slowly appear...
my heart will slowly stop bleeding...
but when will the day come??
i will wait for the time to come...
i will wait for the day when am all heal...
do i really have to be alone...
who will be out there waiting for me...
who will be out there for me...
who will be out there hoping tat my heart can faster heal...
maybe i should stay single...
i donno...
am afraid of the hurts...
am even more afraid of hurting u...
i really donno why everything has become a lie to me...
i really donno why i jus don dare to believe in anything...
izzt because i think too much...
or is because i totally lost the trust in guys or love???
i really donno...
bOy...do you noe...
i have been always hoping and waiting for the day...
when i get to go out wif u...
but i think it's no point for me to think leh...
ca i noe it wont happen leh...
i really wish i can say out how i feel...
i really wish i can noe wat i really wan...
i really wish i can stop hurting ppl...
including myself...
am really tired...
my heart is breaking everyday...
my heart is bleeding everyday...
i wanna stop all the hurts and bleeding...but can i...i really wanna noe...do i have to fix my broken heart myself...
About me!name: Shalyn
birthday: 2O.1O.92
age: 18
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Name: Valentino Chia Jun Yong❤
KKH Hospital
Birthday: 4 nOv 2O1O
EDD: 15 nOv 2o1o
been in my tummy for 38 weeks & 3 days
Natural Birth Without Epidural
2.840Kg, height 49cm, head circumference 32cm at birth
4.680Kg at 1 month & 14 days
5.480Kg at 2 month & 6 days
6.350Kg, height 64cm, head cricumference 41.2cm at 3month & 3 days
6.826Kg at 4 month & 6 days
How i found out i was pregnant♥
Baby Valentino birth story♥
Baby Valentino Growing up "diary"♥
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[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] Healthy & strong boy
[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] Many toys & clothings
[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] lOved by everyone
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❤ 2nd Wedding photo wif outdoor scenary
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❤ tO be a good mummy & wife
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~Friends~
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Mich
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