Sunday, May 31, 2009 ♥
stupid landy keep on say i paranoid ROAR...maybe it really time for me to change ca it can be quite annoying to have a fren tat is paranoid...
having been thinking alot and alot...wondering should i be happy or be emo...should i act even dumber and stupid or should i not...should i jus stay far far away for love or should i not...am afraid of all those hurt...stepping in to love means hurt will been running towards me SOON...even not soon also in few months time...i don wanna hurt anyone i also don wanna hurt myself anymore...can i forget everyone including myself...can i hate myself even more...can i even kill myself...why everything is me only good stuff nv is me...no one actually understands how i feel no wan is willing to giv me wat i really wanted...money is not i wan...if u think wat i really wan is money JUS FUCK OFF OKIE...ytd u use msg to tell me tat u donno how to show me ur love so u use money to show me...u noe i hate it alot...i fucking hate it...i love someone for who he is...i noe gals like it when their bf buy things tat they wan for them...yar i like it too...but i don like it when u do it too much...i don wan history to repeat...i don wanna stay wif someone ca of his money and not his love again...
i agreed tat there are too many 会意 tat might block us from be coming frens...but i really wish i can be frens wif u...i don wish to be unknown or enemy...anyway i only wish to say 分手快乐，我祝你快乐，你一会找到比我还要好的女孩，我不背上你，还有谢谢你教我很多我不会的东西，还有你在2年7个月给我的东西，我不之到我能用设么来换给你，可是我真的很谢谢你，我也很对不起。(if i type any word wrong sorry...my chinese fail de...LOL..)
Saturday, May 30, 2009 ♥
today went to tamp to meet my 3 frens, while waiting for my 2 other fren i saw some stuff tat i should not be seeing...one stupid india man use mirror refection to show me his fucking dick...i was like WTF?!?!?! den i pause there for few sec den i eeee den i tell me fren wat i saw...wtf lah...morning jiy see this kind of thing...den after tat we went to help pri sch kids to make up for their cheer leading...LOL...is was funny..but scary also...hahax...ca first time help someone whom i donno do make up...after tat teacher giv us $50..hahax...so i and my 3 frens took $20 and my malay classmate took $30...ca they have more ppl den us..after tat went to vivo wif Christina...went to arcade played DDR and para...den i watch her play car game and shooting game..which i wont play...den after tat both of ur emO...ca of some stuff...almost cried at the top of vivo...LOL...Christina cried i keep on ren and ren and ren...but i donno why i got the ans tat i wan but i still don believe the person he like is me...hahax...
Friday, May 29, 2009 ♥
i guess am jus not ur gal...thing tat i don wish to end will always end...but things tat i wish to end will nv end...
bOy...and sorry for the hurt i gif u...i tired proving to u i really wan u in my life...but ur like hack care...this really make me feel so hard to carry on...i noe it's my fault...am sorry...i really don wanna hurt u anymore...i hate hurting u...am sorry am really sorry...i wont blame u for hating me...
Once my belOved...
Thursday, May 28, 2009 ♥
exam coming soon...it jus next week...mon tue and wed...LOL...thur and fri don ned go sch...den next next week actually don ned to go sch de...but stupid facial teacher ask us to go back to sch...so mon tue wed i got to go sch for few hours jiu can go home leh...but i still find it stupid...LOL...den fri ned to go sch for "event"...
no one noes how i feel...ca i will nv say it out...even if i do no one will care...am jus sick of everything in my life...can i give up...i wish i really can give up...jus hack care everything and jus hurt everyone around me...sometimes i think why i always think of other ppl first den i think of myself...i always wish tat ppl around me can be happy...but wat about me...do they every think of how i feel...do they noe sometimes i exchange my happy mood wif theif unhappy mood...i don believe they noe...i jus hate fake smile...i jus hate keeping everything to myself...
Let my feelings hide in my heart forever...
Unspeakerable hurts...
Saturday, May 23, 2009 ♥
19Th May...
went to sch till bout 3pm only den went home leh...ca my flight is at 7pm...bout 4pm like tat i reach home change and pack my stuff den about 5 plus go down take 27 to airport...drop at T3 den take sky train to T1 jiu check in leh...my mother went to buy perfume den i walk here walk there see see den go out liao...LOL...den donno what time go take fei ji...when the fei ji moving i super scared lah...ca every time i take fei ji i sure sit down jiu go to sleep liao den this time i nv...LOL...den it fly leh...wah super giddy lah...the pressure super strong lah...i keep on touching the window...LOL...ca cold cold de...cold till the window got some place got little bit of ice...LOL...about 9 plus we reached Bali...den got ppl bring us to the hotel the hotel is like so big lah...it's like 1 hotel got different different block...got 3 swimming pool...got bar all those...back of the hotel is the SEA...den after we put down our bags we went to have our dinner...den after tat we went back to our hotel and we found out tat THE DOOR CANT OPEN..LOL...den my mother ask me and laOgOng go down ask the ppl to help us open the door...den when i and laOgOng go down ask the guy to help us open the door he ask izzt got like one button pop out den i say yar...den he say ca someone press the lock the door de button so we cant open the door...LOL...den the room got one small kitchen got one place ca watch tv den got 2 toilet 1 is outside another is inside the master bed room...master bed room de toilet got jacuzzi...LOL...den another room got 2 bed den still got balcony...but we got 6 ppl so need 1 more bed...at first i and laOgOng pull down one bed so tat no one need to sleep at the sofa outside alone...but my sis bf don wan...at first i donno why he don wanna sleep inside...but till the 2nd nite i den noe why...hahax...so my mother my sis and me share the queen size bed...den laOgOng and my bro sleep at the other room...den my sis bf sleep outside...
2OTh May
woke up at bout 9 plus den i went to call laOgOng wake up den we went to brush our teeth...den we both went to bath but different bathroom ahh...don think slant...one of the bathroom super small lah...can only store at most 2 skinny person lah..den we went to change money...the 1st stall we went almost eat our money...lucky my mother count the money...the person saw my mother count the money den he faster take back the money...2nd stall we went kana cheat i think 30k RP...3rd stall we went i got one feeling this stall wont cheat our money ca it's a gal and the way she speak and all...den we look for place to eat...my bro brought us to massage place after eating...we walked for bout 2hrs jus to find tat stupid massage place...in the end we walk ONE big round around the stupid hotel and we went to another massage...LOL...my massage cost the most..LOL...ca i got do waxing...full arm and leg...LOL...it hurts like hell can!!...and they nv do it properly still got few hair left on my leg and hand..-__-...but first is massage i have to take off everything except my underwear...so paiseh lah...>_<
21Th May
woke up at bout 9 plus...woke laOgOng up brush teeth together again...heee...but when i jus step out jiu saw my bro...LOL...he pull the sofa chair to the i donno how to say...step out of the room jiu can see him leh...LOL...den prepare jiu sit the guy car to the sea sports there...their car super cute lah...all 6 sitted de...den the left side de mid chair can fold de so tat ppl can go the back and sit...we played para-sailing, jet-Ski-ing, diving, flying fish(only available in Bali), banana boat, snorkling and lastly turtle island...we have our breakfast there den start the activity...at the turtle island i saw my fren MONKEY got 2 so cute lah but the guy say will bite ppl de...so i nv go sayang them...T__T...there got eagle, owl, white colour de owl also...the bat there SUPER big!!!...got 2 iguanas and a snake, den the guy drove us back to the hotel we bath all den set off to a veri beautful place to eat...if we nv go back and bath we will get to see the sun set...after eating i and laOgOng went walk walk around the beach...the sand there is like super fine morning the top of the sand is like OMG de HOT...bottom is cold...but at nite the top of the sand is cold but bottom is warm...den on the way back to the table i saw something small moving den i squad down to see wats tat...it's a tiny baby crab...LOL...so i and laOgOng kind of torture it...LOL...den went back to the hotel leh...
22Th May
woke up at 9 plus as usual...i and laOgOng brush teeth together...den pack up all jiu check out leh...den went to have our breakfast but i did not eat anything cos i was having a freaking CRAM!!!..ordered a hot chocolate the more i drink the more i feel like vomiting so i push the hot chocolate to laOgOng...den i really got no strength to walk back leh somemore the weather super hot...so i ask laOgOng to carry me...LOL...we went to Carrefour...at first i wanted to stay in the car de but in the end i went walk walk...bought my sweet and perfume, den we went to other place forget where leh bought a few cute tee...and 1 couple tee...hahax...laOgOng spot it de...LOL...laOgOng bought a few tee for himself also...den after tat we went to many many different Polo Ralph de shop...den laOgOng bought 1 blue Polo Ralph den i take pink de...hahax...den we went to have our dinner we asked the guy to join us but he don wan ca he scared wait our bag lost...it's like i nv see him eat his lunch and dinner...den after tat he drove us to airport den he got to rush home leh...hahax...oooo...forget to say...laOgOng is jealous of domo...LOL...ca i put domo to sleep i help domo gai bei...i sayang domo but nv sayang laOgOng...hahax...
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Sunday, May 10, 2009 ♥
after thinking for sometime...i finally thought of something...i don have the rite to say i love him lots...ca i hurt him more den i love him...i promise not to lie...but can i don lie...if u noe i toking to guy...u will also wanna break...and for sure u will say things...i can only lie to u tat am toking to a gal...u think saying lie to u is so fun...i hate it...i noe u will say u got bf leh still tok to other guys for wat..flirt??...no am not...when u tok to gal did i say u flirt...i did not...i noe ur afraid the same story will reappear again...but i swear i wont make it happen...why when u tok to gals i wont say so much...ca i believe in u..although sometimes i will still peep at who ur toking to in msn...but i wont say anything...i will only say 1 person..but i also nv really say so much...last time i will say alot of things...u say if i tok to guy u will go tok to gals...i don mind...as long as don't everyday tok on the phone...msg still okie...why our relationship always got problem de...why...i don wan it to end up like this...but why it has to end up like this...i really wish we can sit down and tok...say out wat i don like and wat u don like...am already trying my best to avoid those guys tat will harm me or will fan me...only u nv see...ca i nv show it to u...why do i have to act like nth happen and act like i don care and act like am veri happy infront of u...why i nv wanna show u my true face...why everytime i wanna hide my sad face from u...why i hide my sad face from u but i still blame u for not being there for me???...i think am really selfish...our relationship will end up to this stage is all beca of me...am the killer...i always think is ur fault ur fault...but now i noe is all started wif me...if i nv start it we wont end up like today...if letting u go will make u feel happier i will jus let u go...no matter how much hurt i have to go through...i don wanna keep someone tat is not happy wif me...i wan u to be happy...
am sorry for hurting u so much and still blaming u for things tat i nv show u but i still wan u to show me wat i ned...
♥
u do even understand how i actually feels...i noe both of us wanna be like last time...but do u have to come out wif this stupid rule of i cant tok to boys u cant tok to gals again??...ur toking to gals all the time...so wat if ur doing this for ur work..but ur still toking to them...so wat if u got tell them u got gf??...it not like i nv tell them i got bf...at least my tagged profile is not SINGLE...why mus u always act like u fucking understand me when u don even fucking understand me!!!...u don even noe how hurt i feel...u think i like now de life...I FUCKING HATE IT...u don even gif me a fucking freedom...why do u love to say the fucking break word...so fun to say izzt...i really wish i can tell u how i really fucking feel...but why do i also cry infront of u instead of telling u how i feel...i don wanna fall...but why mus u fucking MAKE ME FALL!!!...i donno wat can i do now...kill myself...this wont help in anything...cry...this also wont happen in anything...smile...i cant do it...i hate faking a smile infront of everyone...but why do i have to do it any and any...WHY?!?!?...can anyone tell me wat should i do...i don think so...ca no one fucking understand how i fucking FEEL...and i swear am gonna make myself got gastric for more den 2 days...i swear...why is it so hard for me to let go??...why do i keep on wan to hold on to this relationship when i noe long long time ago tat our relationship for sure wont last de...why...why ppl can jus let go and find a new one...but why i die die also don wanna let go??...WHY...why am i so stupid...so dumb...most of all..why am i so softhearted...why...the person whom i hate the most is i myself...why do i have to live in this world...why...everyone around me will only hurt me...not matter how much happiness they gif me one day they will hurt me...and the hurt is more den the happiness tat they gif me...wat is so fun hurting me??...why do u ppl like to hurt me like no body business??...when i den can find someone tat wont hurt me...the day when am dead i think...why do i have to see happy face on other ppl but why i nv see tat kind of happy face on my face...why do i always see fake smiles and tears on my face...wat have i done wrong to get all this kind of hurt from u ppl...am not a toy to ur okie...ned me den treat me good...don ned me den hurt me throw me aside...why ur love to do things wont out thinking how ppl will feel...why mus ur doing things tat ur do like on ppl...why...
i don wish to see unwanted sms...so pls don't sms me...don fucking call me also...i don wish to ans fucking crap call...
Friday, May 8, 2009 ♥
jus went to view laOgOng de blog...i noe why now our relationship got one big big hole is ca of me...i wish to seal it back...am trying veri hard...i don have to show wat am i tryng to do...do i??...i really wish we can wake up from this nitemare ASAP!!!...i hate to hurt you...i hate to hear the sound of your heart breaking...i think i mus really sit down and think wat i really really ned to do leh...haix...
Wednesday, May 6, 2009 ♥
ytd SO many bad luck things happen...ytd got facial particle...den tat stupid shorty keep on looking at me...den is ppl look at my work and not i look at ppl de work...but she say till like is i looking at ppl de work...den 2 bed away still staring at me...WTF lah...!!!...den ask my so hard de oral que...sure i fail de loh...even if i will pass she also will make me fail de...den care lesson Ms Tay say out the att de % more den i think 95 or 98% is save..den she say i 91%..i was like...HUH???...i everyday got come sch leh...den i only 1 day nv tap card ca got no new ez-link...comfirm is she make mt att % low de loh...think i stupid donno...den HFC the stupid paint kana my uni...WAH...totally out of mood...den my fren wan the detol...den my beside de fren sleeping den my fren painting my toe nail...so i throw the bottle to my beside de beside de fren..den she not cafeul press den some off the detol donno got kana my fren tat is infront of her..but i saw the water fly to the back..den she start to kpkb..i already not in a good mood leh...den she say tat person tat person...den i fucking piss off...den i say ah! u wanna say me den say lah hor...don tat person tat person wanna say say infront of me if not don say...LOL...den she say she donno is me...den she diam diam liao...den after sch de story skip...den laOgOng anyhow think den come say me..i already not in a good mood leh...den we start to kp...den i wanna rush home to wash my uni...den bleh bleh bleh...story too long leh...hahax...den i super angry den i gave the poor little red wall 3 punch..LOL...den now hand pain..-___-...index finger the side got a small hole..LOL...ytd i see...a why got bleed de den see my hand den i now...LOL...but small small only...
den today im my fren de model den i let down my hair...den after tat ned to make bed mah...but i wanna tie my hair first so i sit there comb den shorty come kp me say wat...everyne has finish set up their bed only u have set up ur bed...still sit there comb hair...WTF lah i can see more den 2 bed have set up finish loh...den i not happy den i throw the towel...den i think shorty staring at me...den Ms Tay ask her wat happen den she go tell her say..."everyone finish setting up their bed she still haven still can sit ther comb hair"...wah i hear this i even more not happy...den i say out veri loud to my fren..everyone do finish liao meh...how come i still see so many bed have set up finish...i believe if tat time i take pic i giv the principal she sure die...ca she say everyone set up finish their bed only i haven make...but i set up finish leh still got ppl haven set up finish...stupid shorty...faster leave the sch lah...STUPID ASS HOLE!!!
Sunday, May 3, 2009 ♥
tml i got test...test AGAIN...-___-....got 6 test in a week leh...haix...4 writing de 2 hands de...haix...i hope tml sch GOT air con...if not can die...-___-....
is my blood tat sweet???...i got mosq bites 2 on my left leg..side by side somemore..O.o...LOL...i believe there is more coming soon...so itchy lah..-__- scratch also cant don scratch also cant..LOL...
now ned to go study for tml test leh...LOL...hope it will go inside my brain...LOL...
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