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Valentino's birth and first month

2011-05-11T16:18:00.003+08:00

Valentino's Birth & First Month

4 nOv (first day)

2.840Kg, height 49cm, head circumference 32cm

drink 25ML...

4 dec (1 month)

drink 100ML...

able to smile and look around...

18 dec (1 month & 14 days)

4.680Kg

drink 130ML...

2011-03-01T22:15:00.003+08:00

Baby boy 7th swim! 1st time in "big pool"

went nex to get hubby iphone 4...after tat go eat shabu sui den bring baby boy for his 7th swim...today we let him try the big pool...have to use diff swimming diaper and it cost $3...baby boy share the pool wif another baby gal...shall let him swim bigpool again next time...

2011-02-23T21:43:00.002+08:00

Baby boy 6th swim!

baby boy had his 6th swim at nex today...wondering should i let him join the swimming competition...after swimming i, hubby and his fren go find for baby boy de brown rice after tat jiu go home le...

2011-02-07T20:53:00.002+08:00

baby boy went for his 3th month inject today...his a brave boy...cry awhile only...hope when he grow up he wont so scare if not i headache...today the nurse finally weight him, take his height and measure his head...his weight is 6.350kg his height is 64 cm head is 41.2cm...hope he wont have fever...baby boy next month nid go for inject again...

2011-02-05T17:50:00.000+08:00

Baby boy 5th swim!

tOday baby boy went for his 5th swim at nex again!! went to nex wif my mama and sis and her bf...we sit cab to nex...reach nex jiu bring baby boy for his swim...after his swim go walk walk awhile jiu bus home le....photo will be upload after i bring my lappy to repair

2011-02-03T21:01:00.000+08:00

2Feb2O11

my family went to hub house to eat tuan yuan fan...my mum and sis evny the room i have now...hahax...this is the first yr eating wif my family tgt wif hubby and his parents...there will be more coming!!

3Feb2O11

woke up at 8plus feed bb boy...bath myself and baby boy jiu go out ti hubby de mama de mama house den to his last time nanny house den to his papa de mama house den to my papa de mama house den go back to my own house...tired max!

4Feb2O11

tOday bb boy turn 3 months!!! went to my uncle place first...wanted to follow my mama to my aunt house but i choose to go home wif hubby...but end up i meet my mama and follow her to my aunt house as im bored there...hubby parents got their fren to entertain hubby got his fren to entertain too...but i got no frens...so i went to meet my mama...

2011-01-22T16:55:00.000+08:00

Baby boy 4th swim! 1st time bringing bb boy out on my own!

went to meet Priscillacjn & Veviann at nex baby spa before going to Keting de baby full month...i reach there late so Priscillacjn & Veviann let their baby swim first...after swimming we 3 feed our baby jiu sit MRT to hougang and walk to Keting house...we took i think an hr to find her place...walk till we keep complain...LOL...we were so happy when we found her house...went up and sit awhile jiu go home le...Priscillacjn went home first...den i and Veviann walk to hougang point to wait for cab...i was so super "heng"...the taxi driver said his leg pain so can help me take the pram up the car...at tat point of time i donno wat to do...bb boy on my left hand the parm on my rite hand...heng one kind uncle help me take the pram up...if not i donno is bb boy or the pram drop on the floor or both...the uncle keep tell me say not he don wann help is his leg pain...den start to ask me where my husband...where my mum...why nv follow me to help...wah lao i nv say so much liao tat uncle still so wat...called my mum to wait for my under my block to help me carry bb boy so i can take the thing down...1st time bring bb boy out on my own jiu meet dao this kind of taxi driver...

2011-01-18T21:37:00.002+08:00

went to nex tOday wif hubby and baby boy...walk walk awhile jiu go eat wendy...when my food come baby boy cry for his milk...after drinking he start to kpo..LOL...keep look out of the glass...let him lay down awhile he jiu make noisy let him sit and see outside he jiu quiet quiet...but i love him no matter wat...he is jus so cute...awww all thanx to my com i now got alot of his photo nid to edit and upload...gosh wonder when will my dumb com start working again...

2011-01-16T21:31:00.002+08:00

baby boy 3th swim!!

tOday went to watch movie wif my mama, bro, hubby and baby boy at vivo as my mama got free movie ticket!!...he was a good boy...he did not cry during the movie...after movie went to harbour front center went to eat prata...wanted to bring baby boy for he 3th swim there but the woker there weird weird de so in the end we go nex for baby boy swimming...hubby went off for work after eating...so my mama bring me and baby boy to nex...bought a dress there now left bag and shoes haven buy...

2011-01-13T21:26:00.002+08:00

baby boy 2nd swim!!

today baby boy went for his 2nd swim at nex!! waited for hubby to come den let baby boy swim...chat wif the aunty while waiting...6 plus hubby and his fren reach...we den go in the room and let baby boy swim...he seems to enjoy more during his 1st swim...sign up 20 lesson swimming for baby boy...got 2 $10 discount voucher for 2 of my frens...hahax...today still no photo as my com is still down..think i got to go and repair it liao...

2011-01-10T21:21:00.002+08:00

Baby boy first swim!!

today baby boy went for his first swim at plaza sing...and he love it!!...he noes how to swim too...today is the veri fist day i go out wif hubby and baby boy...finally im allowed to go out...but im still not allowed to go out alone...shall wait till i can go out alone...no pic cuz my lappy is down...shall upload it when my lappy is alright...

2011-01-08T22:08:00.002+08:00

tml i jiu nid go back hubby house liao...today went for message...super pain but now i feel better...im still thinking should i rebond a not...hhhmmm...i got a feeling im going to lose all my fren as im not allow to go out wif my baby boy...sigh...when i den can bring him out...im really sick of no...i really wish hubby de mama can say yes...now my mama allow me liao but......lets hope one day she will say yes too bah...

2011-01-05T21:55:00.002+08:00

tOday is hubby birthday! hubby see dao baby boy jiu wanna carry him...he 6 days nv see dao him liao...cuz i stay at my own house den hubby have to work so he nv come over my house to stay...i will be stay till this sunday instead of today...hubby his mama and papa miss baby boy...i asked hubby de mama help me collect hubby's birthday cake...as i bluff him say i bough nth for him not even a cake...hahax...he was happy when he saw the cake...went down to my house downstairs to eat...after tat jiu go home liao...

Happy birthday hubby...lots of love from me and baby boy...muacks!!

2010-12-27T16:40:00.002+08:00

have been complaining and nagging at hubby this few days...i jus hate it when i have to take care of baby boy myself...changing his diapers and bathing him...even mid-nite only i wake up...hubby seldom wake up...i understand tat there is nth tat he can do when im feeding baby boy but i jus don like the feeling of me doing everything by myself...i hope one day he will understand how i feel...so i don have to whine my complain anymore...

2010-12-21T22:43:00.002+08:00

baby boy cough in the morning i donno is he choke dao or wat but afternoon he jiu nv cough liao...but he haven been sneezing from morning till nite...i hope his nose wont block if not i sure donno wat to do...9pm plus i feed him and his back feel kind of hot and i took his temp and it's 37 degree...i went to tell hubby mama...after tat we wet towel to cool him down...now his temp is 36 degree plus...i hope his temp wont suddenly rise during mid nite...

baby boy pls don fall sick...mummy, daddy, both

grandma and grandpa will heart pain...

2010-12-20T22:30:00.000+08:00

woke up at 10.30 am plus today...feed baby boy jiu bath and prepare things to bath baby boy...after bath finish him jiu feed him and prepare his milk powder and all jiu go out liao...reach seng kang polyclinic at 2.55pm...waited for an hr jus for my stupid check up...heng i don have to go back again...waste of my time...after tat went to eat sushi wif hubby and his fren...eat finish jiu go buy baby boy 3 month old de tooth paste as it's on offer now normally 1 for $13 plus now 2 for $19.90...buy finish jiu go find hubby papa as he drive us home...

2010-12-18T23:09:00.002+08:00

today woke up 8am plus, prepare jiu cab to sengkang polyclinic went for he jaundice test first...finally drop till 65...hope it wont go up liao...after tat went for his hepti B dose 2...check his weight first...he is now weighing 4.68 kg...after tat it's time for his inject...tat bloody nurse poke the needle into little boy so hard till his left thigh dent in when she poke...she poke half of the needle into his thigh...i see liao also pain...after doctor i and my mama went went to compass to shop and eat...around 5pm plus train to nex...today is the first time little boy take MRT!! meet hubby at nex de kiddy palace...walk awhile jiu go home liao cuz too many ppl...shall go there again when little boy is bigger and when there is lesser ppl...oh i wanna drink ice cream milk tea!! 12 dec hubby bought drink tea de ice cream milk tea...the tea taste is strong den te ice cream taste...13 dec hubby bought super bubble tea de magic pearl milk tea cuz ice cream milk tea no more...the magic pearl when u bite inside got jam de...veri special!!...14 dec hubby want to buy milk tea for me but i don wan a bit sick of the tea taste...15 dec hubby bought koi de ice cream milk tea for me...16 dec went to punggol plaza to eat KFC and check about the baby swimming thing wanted to drink ice talk but hubby say later going out to eat wif his parents cuz it his papa de birthday...so i shall drink it next time...

2010-12-12T23:17:00.002+08:00

went home ytd wif my little boy...when my mama take care of him he good boy when i take care he jiu naughty boy...this few days he keep vomiting on me...and he only do it during mid-nite...hope tonight he wont vomit on me!!

2010-12-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

Happy 1 month to my little boy!

woke up at 7 am plus...feed my little boy jiu go prepare...8 am plus MIL, FIL & hubby reach my...pack up jiu go out fetch hubby fren...reach hubby house eat beancurd, pray pray and feed little boy jiu leave house le...reach the place at 11 am plus and start decorating the place...hubby fren pump the balloon i help tie as he don really noe how to tie it...the balloon was super hard to tie...tie untill my hand all red and i start "dancing"...i even injury myself -__-...12 pm plus hubby ITE frens reach and start to help also...1 pm plus ppl start to come...my sec sch fren come first...chat and eat wif them after they leave my other fren came...the party end at 4pm plus although it's a short party but i have fun...

2010-11-29T22:36:00.002+08:00

im tired!! baby boy only let me slp at 4am...omg...i hope today will be better...bath baby boy today wif the help of hubby...i guess tml i will be bathing him again...5 more day to baby's full month...after tat jiu move back to hubby house le...wonder how will it be like...at my own house morning till evening got ppl at home...but hubby house no one he got to study his parents got to work...but after 8 dec hubby jiu no more sch le...so i guess not so bad bah...now i noe it's not easy being a mummy...

2010-11-26T22:53:00.002+08:00

tired...busy taking care of my little boy...sometimes i wish i can slp for the whole day...tml is sat liao...next sat jiu shi baby de full month and my confinement will finally end...awww i feel like eating alot of things but cant...sob...nvm nid ren for few more days jiu can eat wat i wan le...my back hurts...my butt hurts too...my bone is going to break soon...

2010-11-22T22:34:00.002+08:00

little boy was super naughty ytd nite..whole nite don wanna slp...my mama take care of him...but he jus cant stop crying...morning she den return him to me...he make me quite angry..keep cry even when im trying to feed him...make me feel super tired...4plus going 5 den willing to wake up...hope tonight he will be a good boy...

2010-11-21T22:40:00.002+08:00

little boy has been alittle naughty past 2 day...hope tonight he will be better...sometimes when i try to burp him he jus don wanna burp and end up vomiting...sigh...hope he will burp everytime i burp him...

2010-11-17T22:23:00.002+08:00

bath for the 3th time today...1st time was on 10nov 2nd time was on 13nov...having tummy ache for weeks already...sigh...wat happen to my tummy...super tired today...woke up at 1pm plus...little boy still sleeping...but he woke me up at 3am plus and finally slept at 5am plus and woke up again at 7am plus and slept at 8am plus...but luckly he slept all the way till 1pm plus...hope today he wont make me wake up for so long again!!...

2010-11-16T23:02:00.002+08:00

busy taking care of my little boy...stayed in the hospital from 4 nOv to 8 nOv due to my swollen VV...make me walk like duck wif big butt...reach home afternoon...first nite taking care of baby is totally crap...tired to the max...and my VV now not swollen liao but till today it still hurts...i wish all the stitches melt off and drop...and my wound wont hurt...stretch mark all gone...and i can sleep till day time wifout wake up in the mid of the nite...sometimes i wish baby can faster grow up so i can get more sleep...but at time i wish he can forever be a newborn...every part of him is so cute...his little face...little feet and toes...little finger and hands...

2010-11-04T22:41:00.005+08:00

4 nOv!!

was having little pain when i was going to bed...but did not care as i always have the cramp feeling...was having a hard time falling asleep...the pain woke me up at 6.20am plus...sit at the bed for awhile...wanted to go toilet but hubby's alarm suddenly ring...tok to him for awhile den go toilet...did not tell him i was in pain cuz i think is the normal cramp...wanted to ren till noon as i have an appointment at noon...but 7.O9 am i jiu msg hubby tell him im in pain and the pain keep coming but no bleeding so nv tell his mum...9 am i start to bleed a little...told hubby and he told his mum she den call me ask me to prepare she now cab home i wanted to take pic of my tummy before going out but no time liao as she ask the taxi uncle wait downstairs...reach kkh at 10.12 am plus...reaching the labour room hubby suddenly pop beside me...went inside the room for some check for 1hr...wanna sleep also cant...the pain keep come...1hr later the nurse come check me say i by today can give birth...i open eyes big big look at them and say huh...called hubby and told him...only he can pei inside the labour room his mum got to wait outside...about 11.30 am been push into the labour room...go toilet and change jiu lay on the bed wait for doctor, nurse and mid wife to come...so many diff ppl come inside the room...i lay there see wat they doing...they took my blood and put me on drip...after awhile i heard them saying im 3 to 4 cm already...around 12 plus the doctor come in say wanna poke my water bag...i can feel the water coming out...she den warn me tat the pain will be more pain den now...before my water bag was been poke the trainee doctor ask me to rate my pain 0 to 10...i tell him 7 to 8 bah...he shock and tell me if it's 7 to 8 i wont be laughing now...waited waited waited and slowly the pain come my laughing mood stop...ask for laughing gas...breath till giddy...dare not breath too much cuz the nurse say breath too much will vomit...so i try ren...the pain slowly become more and more unbearable till i start whining im in pain and even tot of taking the injection...hubby told the nurse i wan the injection but they say now cant liao no use plus not good for baby so all i can do is ren...the pain is so unbearable till i pls them to let me push when im only 9 cm they keep ask me wait till 10 cm den push if now push there will swollen but at tat time all i wan is faster push baby out...baby out jiu no pain liao...the doctor got no choice try let me push...but in the end they ask me wait cuz now i push waste energy and there will swollen...i super hate the mid wife...she keep tell me nid wait half an hr before it's 10cm when i hear wat she say i feel like killing her...the doctor keep ask me don push but my body auto wanna push end up they make me lay side way but i still push...i ren till whole body shaking liao...i even hit myself on the head...-__-...hubby kana shock and faster stop me and ask me to ren...finally the mid wife come and after awhile baby Valentino is out at 4 pm plus...pushed for about 35mins the stupid mid wife keep say i push correct push veri good...i think all my screaming i scare the trainee doctor...LOL...after baby out they injection something to my thigh but i donno wats tat...they nv tell me the injection is for wat...i can feel them cutting me but sewing not really as they injection to numb my there...the stupid doctor poke me like my there fake de...when he check my there after sewing is super pain de loh...at least the trainee doctor make de more gentle...the doctor jus check like i got no feeling...rest awhile in the room till about 7 plus den been push to the ward... when i been push out my mama gave me a hug and a kiss and say see me like this she veri heart pain...i was super giddy, weak and tired...hubby, his mama and papa, his fren and my mama waited for baby to be push out...my mama is the first to carry baby...my sis and her bf came to vist me too...9 plus they jiu go home liao...super not use to sleeping alone in the hospital...did not sleep well at all...mid-nite the nurse will come in to check...and wake us up for medi at 8plus...

2010-11-04T22:19:00.006+08:00

Valentino's growing up "dairy"

4 nOv(first day)

2.840kg, height 49cm, head circumference 32cm...

drink 25ML...

4 dec(1 month)

drink 100ML...

able to smile and look around...

18 dec(1 month & 14 days)

4.680Kg

drink 130ML...

4 Jan(2 month)

drink 170ML...

able to stare at ppl and smile when he get scold or tok to...

able to baby tok more...

he can support his head on his own for few sec...

10 Jan(2 month & 6 days)

5.480Kg

he had his 2nd month injection

drink 170ML...

13 Jan(2 month & 9 days)

5.770Kg

drink 170ML...

16 Jan(2 month & 12 days)

5.690Kg

drink 170ML...

22 Jan(2 month & 18 days)

5.830Kg

drink 170ML...

4 Feb (3 month)

drink 170ML...

love to stare at ppl and kpo...

love baby toking to ppl and laugh loudly at ppl...

his favourite baby word "a, ah goo,"

noes how to sigh...

love grabbing my hair when he is w/o mitten

trying to flip over...

trying to sit up...

able to support his head...

5 Feb (3 month & 1 days)

6.250Kg

drink 170ML...

7 Feb ( 3 month & 3 days)

6.350Kg

height 64cm

head circumference 41.2cm

he had his 3th month injection

he had his first banana on 19 Feb(3 month & 15 days)

hehadhis first potatoe on 20 Feb(3 month & 16 days)

23 Feb(3 month & 19 days)

6.620Kg

he had his first brown rice mix wif banana

1 March(3 month & 25 days)

6.590Kg

he had his first Heinz apple & mango

he had his first Heinz apple juice on 3 March (3 month & 27 days)

4 March (4 month)

able to turn halfway...

able to baby tok more...

noe how to grap things and play/bite...

able to lift up his head for awhile...

he had his first carrot flavour Baby Bites 5 March (4 month & 1 day)

10 March (4 month & 6 days)

6.826Kg

he had his 4th month injection

13 March (4 month & 9 days)

he had his first Heinz pumkin & sweet corn

17 March (4 month & 13 days)

he had his first Rafferty's Garden baby brekkie

rice cereal with banana pear & milk

21 March (4 month & 17 days)

he had his first Heinz pumkin potato & beef

26 March (4 month & 22 days)

he had his first Heinz delicious apple

28 March (4 month & 24 days)

he had his first Heinz parnip carrot & sweet potato

29 March (4 month & 25 days)

he had his first home-made apple puree

31 March (4 month & 27 days)

he had his first home-made carrot & potato puree

2 April (4 months & 29 days)

7.290 Kg

he had his first home-made banana & apple puree

3 April (4 month & 30 days)

he had his first home-made & broccoli potato puree

4 April (5 month)

love to stand

able to sit by himself on the sofa for more den 10 mins

love to grap his feet when his hand is near his feet

love playing wif his pillow/bean pillow

he had his first filp on 30 March (4 month & 26 days)

2010-11-04T19:57:00.001+08:00

Baby Valentino's Birth Story!!

12.3O am - watch finish show jiu go to bed le...was having little pain but did not care as a tot is the normal cramp feeling tat i always have...

1 am plus - went to the toilet as i tot the pain still there cuz my bladder is full...finally fall asleep after i come back from the toilet...

6.25 am - woke up by the pain again...i tot is bladder full so i wanted to go to the toilet...

6.3O am - hubby alarm rang...but did not tell him im in pain cuz don wan him to worry for nth...tok to him for awhile he jiu prepare go sch i jiu go toilet...

6.5O am - hubby kiss my and baby goodbye and ask me to go back to sleep...

7 am - use my phone to check for labour pain...after checking i try going back to sleep...

7.O9 am - i msg hubby tell him im in pain...but he haven tell his mum as both of us scare fake alarm plus later at noon i have a appointment...

9 am - went toilet and i saw bleed...faster msg hubby tell him...he ask if wan tell his mum as i and him scare fake alarm den make his mum worry and rush for nth...but before i can reply him he tell his mum already...his mum den call me ask me faster go bath and prepare she now cab home...and she sound so rush...

9.27 am - went to brush teeth and pack my cloths in my hospital bag den go bath...

9.45 am - hubby mama reach home...

9.48 am - wanted to take pic of my tummy before going out but too rush le no time...comb hair jiu go down le...cuz hubby mum ask the taix uncle wait downstair...

1O.12 am - reach KKH...hubby cab there after his exam and reach when i was about to reach the labour room...

1O.3O am - did some test(donno wat's the name of the thing)...the room no one...only me...they put something to check baby heart beat and the contraction...try to sleep but when ever i falling asleep the pain come...

11.2O am - the nurse come in to check me...she put her finger inside my VV and tell me by today i can give birth liao...i kana shock...but was happy also...faster call hubby tell him...sit at the wheel chair and wait to be push out...tok to hubby mum for awhile jiu been push to the labour ward liao...only hubby can pei me his mum got to wait outside...

11.3O am - reach the labour ward...go toilet and change jiu lay on the bed wait for doctor and nurse to come...

11.35 am - nurse and doctor prepare thing tat they got to prepare...the trainee doctor den intro himself to me and ask me if i mind him assisting the delivery...the nurse den put me on drip and ask me watch tv...LOL...

12 pm - another trainee doctor come in wif the first trainee doctor...ask me if i mind the second trainee doctor to assist the delivery instead of him cuz he got another delivery...

12.O5 pm - he ask me to rate the pain from 0-10..i told him 7-8...LOL...both him and hubby laugh...and he told me if it 7-8 i wont be laughing now...

12.3O pm onwards - i donno is nurse or doctor come in to poke my water bag as im already 3 - 4 cm...i can feel the water coming out from me...waited waited and the pain started to come...asked for laughing gas...but soon the pain even more worst till i started whining and shouting veri pain when the pain come...hubby keep ask me hold his hand when the pain come...but i hold awhile jiu push his hand aside...i even tell hubby i don wanna give birth...LOL...he say cant like tat say and say after baby out he buy thing gif me...LOL...but i forget wat i reply him...i keep wanna drink water...poor hubby got to keep go out take water for me...i wanted to take the inject at the tight but cant cuz im more den 5 cm inject also no use and not good for baby...the nurse keep ask me breath the laughing gas...but i don wan cuz no use it only make me giddy but the pain still there...and i don dare breath too much cuz the nurse tat gif me the laughing gas say breath too much will vomit...hubby keep ask me try breath but i keep push away...but i try breathing it again awhile but throw it aside after awhile...LOL...the mid-wife den come and check me and tell me baby the face donno facing where and if baby don wanna face the proper position i veri hard to gif birth...and even tell me i got to wait 3O mins before im 1O cm...i really feel like peeling her skin at tat point of time...when i was only 9 am i pls them to let me push...cuz the only way to stop the pain is to push baby out from my tummy...at first they ask me to wait till 1O cm den push...cuz now push my VV will swollen but at tat time i don care i only wanna stop the pain...so they got no choice let me try push...but they ask me to stop pushing after awhile cuz im wasting my energy...but my body keep auto wanna push so they make my lay side way..say this can help baby to face the corrct positing...i bare the pain and try not to push till my whole body shaking...and i even start hitting my head...LOL...hubby kana shock and faster stop me and ask me to bare wif it...the mid-wife come in again and say baby facing the correct position liao...so she let me push baby out...baby about to out they cut...and i can freaking feel it...i push till no energy the mid-wife faster go out ask the nurse to help me by pushing my tummy when im pushing...finally baby is out..the pain is gone...and i heard my little boy cry...hubby was smiling while telling me baby is out and all...after baby out they inject something to my tight and after awhile another doctor come in to stitch me...he inject my VV to numb it...he was freaking rough after he stitch me he check on me he jus check like my VV fake de...at least the trainee doctor is much more gentle...

thanx hubby for being beside me...and keep on encourage me...

2010-11-01T20:06:00.002+08:00

38 weeks!!

went home on sunday to pack me things as my parents is giving my house a make-over...my dad keep ask me throw all my things...den i jus say out why ur keep wanna throw my things like wanna chase me out of this house...den my mum say she help me put my things aside when i come on next sunday den i pack it myself...before i get down of my dad car i keep tell them don anyhow throw my things ar...LOL...

baby Valentino is 38 weeks today 2 more weeks for him to stay in my tummy...but i hope he can come out soon...but my mum say my tummy haven drop down so baby will stay inside of me for at least 2 weeks...i hate the cramp feeling and this few days my throat keep have those burning feeling super uncomfortable...

baby baby faster come to this world...i cant wait to see u...

14 days more till baby Valentino birth...

2010-10-25T19:38:00.002+08:00

How i found out my pregnancy

This is how i found out my pregnancy...i was few days last for my menses during Feb but i hack care...thinking tat maybe is because im stress tat's why late...so i decided to wait...waited till almost end of Feb still nth...went to find hubby after his work and decided to buy a test kit to test...when i saw two red line i smile to myself...show it to hubby and he was shock...but one of the line is veri light so nv confirm...waited for few days and test again...two red line and this time im scare rather den happy...but i choose to hack care the result as i got no signs of pregnancy...i keep telling myself maybe is the test kit got problem so i carry on waiting...seeing a doctor to confirm nv come to my mind as i can still run, jump and even sit at the back of the bus...so i told myself if im pregnant by doing all this i should have miscarriage already...so i totally throw away the thinking of im pregnant...bought pill and medi tat help come menses but stop drinking it after a few times as the taste sux...during April my womb have a funny ball shape when ever i wake up...i tot it was because something block my womb and the blood got stuck...tried getting pill from doctor but he wan me to take a urine test first but i refuse to do so...but after thinking i told hubby tat i wanna go and do the urine test...i donno why i wanted to do so...maybe baby wanna let me noe tat his is inside me...pass the paper to the doctor and his whole face change...at tat point of time i and hubby thinking is to abort away this baby...as we are scare of our parents reaction...went to KKH the veri next day...did a scan...when i saw baby little hands and legs i felt happy and sad too...baby was 4 months old already...if i wanna abort it i got to go thought labour pain and giving birth as baby is too big to do the normal abortion...after thinking a told hubby tat i don wanna give birth to a dead baby...i wanna give birth to a live baby...after delaying hubby kept his promise and told his mum about the news...as for me i don have the balls to tell my mum...it's hubby's mum tat break the news to my mum...i regret not going to the doctor when i saw the result on the test kit...but if i went to the doctor maybe baby is now in heaven le...i got no morning sickness, all i have was fainting in public, sudden increase/decrease of appetite and seldom leg cramp...overall i have quite a easy pregnancy...

2010-10-25T19:26:00.002+08:00

37 weeks! =D

tOday baby Valentino is 37weeks!!...wonder when will he be out...i jus cant wait...i haven pack my hospital bag yet...as i have no idea wat to pack...check web and they list so many thing...and some stuff i find it useless to bring...so confuse...but i got to pack my bag soon liao...anyway i went to cut my hair last sat...gosh im SO not use to short hair...and my hair is all curl up!!...cant do rebonding as my hair will drop even more...but im gonna rebond it before chinese new yr...i cant stand the curly-ness...and i hope i can slim down to my before preggy weight before baby's full month...i don wanna let so many ppl see the fatty me...hahax...

21 days more till baby Valentino birth...

2010-10-21T20:33:00.002+08:00

tOday went for check up at KKH...doctor say baby Valentino size is a 35weeks baby size instead of 36weeks...weighting 2.7kg...will be doing a scan the next 2 weeks when i go back for the next appointment...wonder when will baby Valentino come to this world...hhhmmms...tml going to baby fair wif lao bi and his parents...nid to faster buy and pack my stuff leh...the days are getting closer!!...sat nid go cut hair le...sob...nvm hair will still grow back...i jus have to wait for my hair to grow back again...

25 days more till baby Valentino first breath...

2010-10-20T21:00:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday to ME!!

tOday it's my 18th bithday...2O.1O.2O1O...nice date...hahax...it have been a long time since i celebrate my birthday wif my family...went to east coast park de hawker center to eat...lao bi de mama order alot of shell thing...gong gong, mussel, cockles and stingray...my papa order satay, oyster wif egg, rojak and hot dessert...my sis bf buy cold dessert...LOL...after eating lao bi and his mama go take my cake...took some pic jiu sing birthday song, blow candle and make a wish...hehe...and my red packet from lao bi parents and my parents is more den last yr...keke!!...before going off i receive two kiss from my mama...hahax...ohh!!...and i finally can drink my coconut...after waiting SO long...

last yr i spend my birthday as a gf...this yr i spend my birthday as a wife...next yr i will be spending my birthday as a mother!!

26 days more till baby Valentino first breath...

2010-10-12T20:16:00.002+08:00

went to ikea wif my mama and sis on sunday to look for bed frame...but in the end my mama decide to buy it near my house as it better...she bought a touch screen lappy for herself...i only got myself a little green snake...keke...almost forget to pay...was holding it till i forget...if hubby nv ask where is the snake i think i will take it home for FREE...LOL...after tat hubby papa drive my mama and sis home jiu drive us home...

ytd went to meet Elaine...have fun chatting wif her...she stay super near to me...jus one straight line...next time can let baby Valentino play wif her baby...keke...

34 days more till baby Valentino first breath...

2010-10-07T19:01:00.002+08:00

super lazy to blog these few days...went home last weekend...told my mum baby head down already...she den say mean baby going to come out soon...whooo...i haven go and collect bean for baby's pillow...got to get it soon...awww...im so so super lazy to do anything...jus now went to KKH all thanx to the blur nurse tat key in the wrong date...next appointment is at 21 oct...one day after my birthday...and i heard i nid to do virgin donno wat...heard from my in-law is they take something like s spoon and scoop donno wat thing to check if everything is ok...i hear jiu hair stand liao...why they nid to check this kind of thing...

39 days more till baby Valentino first breath...

2010-09-30T20:40:00.003+08:00

KKH check up

tOday went to KKH for check up...went there late...cuz everytime i go there before my appointment time i have to wait from got alot of ppl till going to close...doctor say baby boy is growing well...not too big or too small...weight 2369 grams now...will weight 2.8 to 3kg at birth...luck baby boy still will grow even i have been eating veri little this few months...cant wait for baby boy to come to this world...excited and scary...i cant wait to see how my baby boy look like...spending my day wif him...but i scared of the sewing...and i also scared i get irritated easily or i cant handle him well...awww...hope i wont be a small angry ghost...

46 days more till baby Valentino first breath...

2010-09-29T21:46:00.006+08:00

Ben and jerry

tOday went home to get ben and jerry's ice cream coupon...on the way walking to bus stop heard someone shouting...don wanna care cuz i tot ppl fighting...hubby turn and look...and say "eh...my dad"...LOL...he drive us to my house to get the coupon...luckly my dad is at home...i remember tat i forget to take my key half way to my house...LOL..after tat hubby dad drive us to hougang mrt den meet his mum there...mrt to Dhoby Ghaut...walk to park lane to eat den to the cathy to eat ben and jerry...after tat home sweet home...

47 days more till baby Valentino first breath...

2010-09-28T23:17:00.005+08:00

ROM

tOday im offically Mrs Chia...today keep rain and stop...hubby papa drove us there cuz rainning plus he finish work already...went up to wait for my parent and hubby mama...saw someone at the door...i and hubby guess is his mama...and it's really his mama...she went to buy flower for me for the ROM...tat's sweet of her to do tat..hubby keep asking her how much she buy she don wan say...i ask her why don wan buy fake flower so wont dry off...she donno reply me wat...after awhile my mama and papa jiu come le...waited outside and i suddenly ask this..."we nid to register de mah"...hubby de mama reply me say..."huh! ur haven register"...i say haven...LOL...den we went in to register...was super blur register ok liao we also donno..LOL...waited outside for our turn...was panic when it's our turn to go in...cuz hubby de papa go park his car at the ROM outside de car park...lucky he manage to come back in time...went in for few mins jiu come out le...took some pic before heading to sakura...have fun eating wif my parents, hubby and his parents...went home at 8 plus...went there at around 5 plus...ate for few hrs...hahax...

i hope baby Valentino can come out at 17 nOv...but hubby mama 15 nOv nid to go oversea for busniess...i hope 17 nOv cuz my papa sure will be veri happy if it 17 nOv...but if 17 nOv hubby mama not in singapore to her...so i shall let baby Valentino decide his birth...

tOday is the day my ring finger is no longer empty...

tOday is the day my states is no longer single....

tOday is the day im turn into Mr Chia wife...

from this day on i promise to be wif u no matter wat happens...

nv leave u or do any unfaithful thing to u...

i wanna hold on to ur hand and walk wif u for as long as i can...

48 days more till baby Valentino first breath...

2010-09-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

tOday went home to see wat my mama buy back from US...reach home parents not at home...waited awhile for them to come home...mama buy one big bag of sweets, one big bag of baby clothing, bath support and carry baby de thing(donno wats tat called)...8plus went back to hubby house...gif his mama see wat my mama buy for baby Valentino she shock...say my mama power...wonder how she bring back all the things...my mama also buy for his mama a CK bag...key chain for his mama and papa...bought shirt for hubby...for me lei is all those sweets...kekeke!!...baby Valentino got the most thing...alot of clothing and some toys...

tml is my ROM wif Mr Chia...i will offically become Mrs Chia tml...

49 days more till baby Valentino first breath...

2010-09-26T19:29:00.003+08:00

JB, temple

tOday went to JB wif hubby and in-laws...woke up 1Oam...drag and delay till 1O.18am den get out of bed...bath and prepare jiu go out le...today not so many ppl so don have to wait so long...went there eat and buy things...bought a bed room slipper for baby Valentino...but he can wear it only when his about 2 or 3 yrs old...bought BUBBLE GUM!!...plan to buy more next time when i go JB again...keke...hubby bought some clothings...i did not buy cuz now im fatter den before >=( after birth and slim down den go buy cloths...bought my daily lens there too...hubby bought his monthly lens also...before leaving went to buy milo and some snack for my parents...around 4plus jiu reach singapore...when home take thing jiu go punggol plaza collect pic and try active my UOB card but cant...cuz tat time they nv sent the active num den i try my own pw den now cant active liao...nid go bank make liao...sian~...after tat jiu go pack food...after packing when temple see see...i now wish i can live forever...i think when i die i go hell i sure scare till face white white...oooo...i hope all the story of ppl die will go hell is fake de...the god all look so scary..>_<...

my mama now at plane liao...will reach home at mid-night...tml going home to see wat she buy for hubby, me and baby Valentino...awwww...28/9 i will offically become Mrs Chia...hohoho...

5O days more till baby Valentino first breath...

2010-09-21T21:41:00.002+08:00

haven been updating my blog for sometime le...everyday stay at home so nth much to write...last sun(19/09) i went back home...my dad keep tell me his darling mummy coming home this week...he sure miss my mum alot...my bro bought mooncake for hubby's family...durian mooncake...share it wif his family after we reach home...today i happen to go and check my mail and i saw a email from my mum...she say she bought alot of baby clothes and a sling for me to carry my baby...i wonder wat she buy...cant wait to see it on mon...i wonder wat she buy for me and hubby...hhmmm...my dad say his sis will pass some baby cloths to him donno when...looks like baby valentino have alot of clothes...i always grumble to hubby tat baby valentino have so little clothes...maybe god heard my grumble...hahax...i cant wait for my mummy to come back to singapore...

55 days more till baby valentino birth...

5 days more till my mama come back to singapore...

2010-09-11T20:40:00.002+08:00

mama is on the way to US

tOday my mama not at singapore liao...will be back on the 26...hope she will have fun there and my sis wont bully her...she will reach US at 1am...but at there is afternoon...anyway i woke up at 1plus today...maybe cuz rainning...eat and prepare jiu go lao bi aunty house...lao bi papa drive me,lao bi and his mama to pasir ris mrt...took train from pasir ris to painer(think is like tat spell) mrt den bus to lao bi aunty house...waited for his cousin to come home...after they are back we watched our wedding video and pic...after tat eat steamboat...eat finish jiu watch show awhile jiu go home le...we get down at bedok and waited for lao bi papa to arrive...his mama went to buy the pig mooncake while we waited inside the car...halfway through lao bi get up from my lap and saw a comb on the car floor and pick it up to show his parents...before his parents say a word a felt a little spook when i saw tat comb...he get scolded for picking up the comb and warn not to touch anyone before his mama do something about it...not sure wat was it...reach home lao bi got to stand outside...i wanted to see wat is going on but he ask me go inside...say cant see...so i guai guai go change my cloths...

65 days more till my little boy is born...

15 more days till my mama is back...

2010-09-10T20:14:00.002+08:00

Grandma house!

tOday bought smelly toufu for my mama at papamalam...don have the prawn thing as today is hari raya...after tat took bus 62...slack awhile at my house jiu go my ah ma house...8plus reach ah ma house...eat a bit while my parents pass thing to my ah ma...after tat my mama suddenly open a box and tell me inside got rat...i was like rat?!?!...hamster izzt...she say no rat...and tell me go long tail...but not those big black rat...they are small in size...look like hamster only the tail is longer...there were 6 boxes of it...2 big 4 small...one box got newborn rats...10 over babys wif 3 mummys inside...i think there are more den 50 rats inculding the newborn baby...omg...some still noe how to jump...lao bi say if his mama at there she sure run till far far...hahax...after seeing the rat me, lao bi, my parents and ah ma go eat...eat finish my papa bring my ah ma up jiu drive my and lao bi home den drive my mama home den go work...tml my mama will be sitting 17hr flight...wooo thinking of the hr i sian half already...wonder wat she gonna do at the plane...

66 days more till my little boy is born...

2010-09-07T21:35:00.002+08:00

booking of ROM date!

tOday went down to book ROM date...i will officially married to Mr Chia on 28sept...after booking jiu went to eat wif hubby and his mama...eat finish jiu go home leh...today is ghost festival de last day...and tml is o8sept...1month anni for our wedding...keke...time sure pass fast...soon i wll be busy buying stuff tat is nidded for my baby...after few months jiu nid prepare full month thing...as the days get closer i get more and more excited and nervous...

69 days more till my little boy is born...

2010-09-05T21:18:00.002+08:00

O4.O9.1O

meet my mama at amk to open UOB account as she is going to oversea next sat...and she scare i nid use money but no money so open bank account for me...after tat go and eat den go buy thing...after tat jiu go home le...

O5.O9.1O

wake up prepare jiu meet my mama at hougang mall wif my papa,korkor and hubby...go eat chicken rice den go NTUC buy things...saw alot of orange and started act like annoying orange...LOL...buy finish things jiu go home le...nite time papa drive us home...my mama buy gif me one bottle of fish oil...cuz i at there complain the doctor gif de fish oil not eunff for 1 month...LOL...the bottle cost $53...next sat mama jiu go overseas loh...nid wait till at least 27 step den can see her...i wonder wat she will buy back O_O...

happy 1yr 2months anni~

3 more days to our 1month anni for wedding~

71 days more till my little boy is born...

2010-09-02T21:42:00.002+08:00

went to KKH today...finally i got to see my baby boy...but did not get to see his face as he was facing down...im gaining weight like free of charge...last time i 42kg...now 49kg...im going to slim down after birth...baby weight is only about 1.6kg...his head is 272mm...abdomen is 257mm...head size is normal...but his tummy is alittle big...but doctor say overall is normal...next check up is on 30sept...awww time pass so fast...im getting more and more scare...hope i wont be tat scare when the day really come...hope i can calm myself down on tat day...hope deliver will be fast and smooth...

75 days more till my little boy is born...

2010-09-01T22:12:00.002+08:00

tOday went to MCYS to get the ROM thing...they finally called!!...morning my mama call me tell me ytd my papa fall down from my bed...she say maybe he too miss me tat's why will sleep walk and sleep at my bed...and my mama also say she nv seen my papa sleep walk before...haix...i feel like im a burden to everyone...im jus creating problems and trouble to everyone around me...

76 days more till my little boy is born...

2010-08-30T19:42:00.003+08:00

tOday woke up at 1pm plus...hubby went for his NS check up...i alone at home...watch tv while eating...after tat use com while waiting for hubby to come home...around 6pm plus hubby finally come home le...eat dinner jiu carry on use com...this thur day going to have scan...yeah...can see my little boy...finally!!...going to ask about 3D scan...if not too ex i wan do 3D scan...keke...

78days more till my little boy is born...

2010-08-29T20:30:00.001+08:00

wooo...it has been a long time since i touch my blog...jus come home from my own home...this week my mama did not go dancing on sat...reach home hubby wanna see xiao xin...watch while waiting for my mama to come home...after tat went down to eat...i and hubby did not eat much ca hubby mama cooked for us before we went to my house...after eating went shop and save to buy things...my mama bought chicken essence for me...after tat went home watch tv and play com...after tat jiu go sleep le...hubby woke up earlier den me...woke up few times saw him playing dota...LOL...so i went back to sleep...LOL...end up kana force to wake up by hubby...i think ca he play dota till sian liao...LOL...on tv watch xiao xin again...LOL...noon my papa wake up help us pack lunch...eat finish liao awhile my mama come home...show us the cloths she buy...hahax...bought some dessert home...eat while watch wedding video...after tat 8plus sit papa cab to hubby's home...i have to wait another 5 more days to see my mama again...but she going oversea soon...sept 11 leave singapore sept 26 come home...

2010-08-10T22:13:00.002+08:00

sleepless night

having hard time sleep ytd nite...donno is ca i miss my mummy,bed,house or not use to new bed and house...wanna go toilet in the mid of the nite but donno where is the light and scare wake hubby up...so i ren till he wake up for sch...he keep go back to sleep...i keep ask him wake up...hehe...same as ytd...wake up jiu tell me i snatch his blanket...keke...>_<...im a blanket snatcher...after tat hubby jiu go off to sch...i lei jiu go back sleep...sleep till hubby come home...wake up brush teeth jiu eat...after tat i keep pester hubby to bring me to amk...ca i wanna drink KOI cafe ice cream milk tea...buy finish thing and drink jiu go eat...after tat see cd jiu bus home le...reach home make green tea for hubby mama as my mama say green tea good for high blood...done making the tea green jiu go inside room...saw miss call from my mama...called her...chat wif her awhile jiu hang le...haix...i really wish i have money...i hate it when my mama tell me she wanna live to how old...i wan her to live till longer...i really wish i can make her less stress...but there is nth i can do...i cant work...i got no money all i can help is make her not so worried about me...i hope by doing this can make her less stressful...i don wanna see her like this...it hurts...i really wish tat she can stop saying tat...

2010-08-09T22:04:00.002+08:00

second day of married and stay at hubby house!!

woke up at 11am plus today...sit down wif hubby and his parents while they count the red packet money...after tat prepare jiu go eat den return gown and buy some food for me incase i alone at home hungry nth to eat...after tat jiu go home...stupid hubby keep sing song...so noisy...sing till i fall asleep...and make his mama pek cek...LOL...after tat jiu go out eat wif his ite frens...eat finish jiu go home...call mama tok to her after tat jiu go bath, use com jiu watch mr bean...today im gonna snatch blanket wif hubby again!!...

2010-08-08T21:27:00.003+08:00

wedding day

tOday is 8 of aug...the day has finally arrive...my big day...woke up 6.30am prepare and wait for fren msg...7.30am make-up artist come...make up, style hair and change...totally got no time to help in the punishment thing...felt like crying when my parents comb my hair and cover the veil for me...after tat hubby came...finish off wif the punishment wif his bros...after tat he have to say his truthful words to me...was touched by wat he say...after tat claire open the door...he pass me the flower...leave up the veil and kiss me...went out to eat tang yuan...before eating my mama hug hubby and say some stuff to him...see her in tears makes me cry...after tat hubby feed me eat den my mama feed him and tell him "u feed her means i mus feed u loh"...haha...cute of her...eat finish jiu go down sit car to hubby house...awww...waving to my papa make me feel sad and cant bare to leave...reach hubby house downstair take some pic jiu go up le...hubby's cousin ivan took some pic of us...and suddenly hubby say he got some stuff wanna tell him...awhile more hubby stand infront of me while i was siting on the bed...and he suddenly kneel down and propose to me...was shock,surprise and touched...i tot i will nv have the chance to feel how been propose is...after tat had tea ceremony, eat...awhile jiu go to hubbys popo house...after tea ceremony jiu go home...bath, slack awhile jiu prepare to go restaurant...hubby make up and style his hair first...after tat me...prepare all jiu carry on wif tea ceremony...when my mama hug and kiss me i cant control my tears...christina keep ask me ren ca alot of ppl looking...was trying my veri best to ren my tears...after tat dinner jiu start...did not eat much ca no time to eat...after tat dinner jiu end le...thanx the guest for coming...and some hugs from my aunty...and before going off i hug my mother goodbye wif tears in my eyes...and for the veri first time i hug my dad and bro...up car wave goodbye to my mama,papa,korkor,jiejie and her bf...waving goodbye really hurts...reach home bath jiu sleep le...hope my mama can get to sleep well...and don so worried for me...i don wanna see her in tears anymore...i wanna see smiles on her face...

anyway this is a short detail of the whole day...

6.3o am - finally finish my delaying and get out of bed...walk out of my room and wake my mother up...after tat go bath...

7.3o am - claire and christina arrived at my house followed by the make-up artiest...

7.4o am - start making up...

8.oo am plus - camera man, video man and the rest of my frens arrive...

8.1o am - parents comb my hair and the make-up artiest style my hair...

8.4o am - change into gown, wear my accessories and put on my veil...

9.15 am - car horn by hubby and his relative...

9.2o am - gate crush...

9.5o am - camera man took pic of my parents putting down the veil for me...

1o.1o am - hubby say his truthful words to me after saying claire open the door for him...hubby pass me the flower, lift up the veil and kiss me...after tat jiu go out take photo...

1o.3o am - my mum hug hubby and told him some stuff...after tat eat tang yuan...

11.oo am - leave my house...

11.3o am - go up hubby house...went into the room rest awhile, take picture and eat tang yuan...

12.oo pm - tea ceremony...

1.oo pm - eat a bit, chit chat and slack awhile jiu go change...

1.3o pm - go hubby's gong gong house for tea ceremony...

2.2o pm - reach hubby house...

2.5o pm - walk here walk there...disturb frens den finally go and bath...

3.2o pm - out from the toilet...

3.25 pm - went to find my frens cuz hubby playing dota wif his frens...

4.oo pm - start to feel sleepy as there is nth for me to do...but cant get to sleep...

4.30 pm - prepare to go to the restaurant...

5.3o pm - reach the restaurant but waited awhile cuz my stuff still wif my frens...

5.45 pm - they finally reach...hubby first make-up first...after tat den me...

7.oo pm - tea ceremony at the restaurant...

8.oo pm - dinner start...

after tat i totally got no time to see the time anymore....the dinner end at 11plus...after tat thanx those who come for the dinner...and took some picture...12plus leave the restaurant...after tat home sweet home...

2010-05-30T21:45:00.004+08:00

moodless,stress...

if i noe things would turn out this way i would stop it from happening...i feel so helpless...im sick of waking up in the morning wif lots and lots of thing run through my head...im tired of hiding my tears...i totally have no mood to do anything...all i wish to do now is sit and stare at the sky and cry non-stop...i donno wat to choice...one is regret another is trouble...i noe trouble might be the better choice ca it wont stay wif me the whole life...as it can be solve by time and sincerity...but regret no matter how and wat u do it will be there forever...nth can be do and change...i donno how to start the ball rolling...im scare...im willing to do anything for it...i cant bare to see it gone wif my own eye...i rather die...i noe i cant hang on like this for long...im going crazy soon...im going to be depress soon...i don wanna be depress...i noe i will do crazy stuff tat no one can imagine...i might even one day call myself...i really hope i can find a way out...i don wanna life wif a live like this forever...i really wish i can tell someone...someone tat been through wat im in now...maybe by toking to her i will feel better and noe wat to do...but who can i find??...

all i can do now is only wait for miracle...and courage to face it wif out think of anything...sometimes i have the courage...but awhile i gone...sometimes i wonder how the others have the courage to face it and protect or even settle it in peace...now i can only tok to it tell it how i feel...and hope tat it will gif me courage to face it...i don not wan to bring harm to it...but love and happiness...i can also only pray to god to gif me the courage and hope things can settle peacefully wifout any fight but words...but all i can do now is only sit and wait...waiting sux...moodless sux even more...haix...

im willing to go through all the pain jus for u...

im willing to gif up everything jus for u...

im willing to do everything jus to bring u happiness...

i don wish to do anything harmful to u, pls stop me if i have the thinking...

u might feel veri stress wif all my thinking and worrys...

but believe me...

i love you...

2010-05-25T23:11:00.004+08:00

papamalam, weird thing about me... ='(

hello peeps...long time nv blog leh...lao bi house de papamalam closed on sun(16/5) and my house de papamalam open on 22/5 sch bus stop de ytd(23/5) jus open...places around me having papamalam...keke...awww im already having big tummy le...die...eat somemore wait really become fat pig...getting sian of sch timetable so late dismiss...crap...so late start for donno wat...i rather early start and early go home...tml having PE nafa 5 station...hope my standard haven drop...

today cuz of some reason quarrel wif lao bi...and i suddenly went to look at the things inside his cupboard...slowly read throught everything...and ofca i felt jealous...but i jus don understand why i felt like crying too...i mean why...i should be angry ca i jealous and create a big quarrel wif him...but i only keep asking him diam and go ask and push him go away...i noe i should not be itchy hand...but i cant stop the itchy hand of mine...i really regret noeing him...not cuz of wat he do...but is because i jus donno why i love to dig out his past...i noe this only hurt our relationship...but i cant stop myself...im tired of dig out his past...tired of being jealous at thing tat cant be change...im tired of me...i noe i say alot of hurtful things to you today...im sorry...i really wish to noe wat happen to me...why does tears fall so easily..but stopping it is so hard?? i hate crying...but why my tears came back to me today?? ='(

im no longer the "prefect" gf in ur life...

im no longer the shalyn i use to be...

but do u noe it's hard to be me??...

do u even noe i appear to be fine but deep down i might not feel fine??...

i might seems strong...

but do u noe im scare of falling??...

2010-05-08T00:00:00.003+08:00

Random post,KTV,Mothers day

May O2

laO bi went to malaysia for shopping...wanted to follow go de...but cant ca of work...='( but laO bi go till afternoon only...if not i sure veri lonely...i ask laO bi to buy sweet sweet for me...keke...and he bought one big bag of gummy for me...big till we went to eat at wang after my work the lady tat help me and lao bi shock...and ask me this "this sweet all yous? " den i say "yar" while smiling den she say "u can eat all finish" i reply the same this den i forget wat she say but it mean it takes forever to eat finish this bag of sweet...LOL...and laO bi also buy me a domo pouch...keke...>__<...

May O4

tOday is graduation day...reach sch at 9am...my mind was like shit late liao...wait i cant attend graduation...faster go up auditorium...faster call Christina ask her where she...shw saw me first...see dao me jiu hug me...hahax...den i go register jiu walk go inside...saw Joan, Shi Hui, and Eveon(not sure if i spell correctly) and the funniest part is...Christina mum standing beside her i donno...i tot who...LOL...after she tok to her i den shock dao...den i ask her ur mum ar...den she laugh and say yar den who...den i faster call her...LOL...after tat jiu go in leh...watch video...all other course de...also no beauty..stupid...after tat sing sch song...den awhile jiu go up stage take certification my class is the first to take...LOL...scared scared...den i keep asking Christina if i walk till half way i fall how...LOL...ca i wear heals...after tat jiu go eat...oh the donno is cream of ice cream puff nice...tell Christina she don believe wait tilll she eat den go take one fill plate...LOL...eat le jiu go take real certificate, photo and cd...take finish go toilet jiu go find laO bi...den Christina after tat den come find me...ca laO bi lunch time going to up leh...so i go over first...pei laO bi buy food and buy my chicken wrap...i tell laO bi this...don break wif me till i go ur graduation ca i wanna eat the food...den i laugh and say wah den i can eat 3 times...ca nitce, laObi and higher nitce...but laO bi like don care wat i say...stupid...after tat lao bi go back class i jiu bring Christina to the cookie shop...i buy drink jiu go cafe 1 outside sit while she buy food eat...eat finish jiu go home leh...change jiu go find laO bi...and the next day i go sch my teacher say section head wan a letter why we nv go class ytd...LOL...

May O8

meet laO bi at hougang mall de bus stop...after his cca thingy...was complaining hot and thirsty...really cant stand the weather...i think soon im going to faint for the 3th time...sometimes i cant stand under the hot sun for long...few mins and here i say hello to blackout...maybe there is something in my brain...okie back to my post...after tat bus to chai chee...KTV till 7pm jiu bus to compass...eat jiu go make cake...reach home 10plus...gif my mama de cake...den she open it herself...see dao the cake jiu keep say veri cute...den take pic...LOL..and ask me how much...so i told her the price...after tat jiu eat the cake...eat le jiu blog...tml laO pi working...i jiu guai guai stay at home...nite i wan go papa malam...laO bi say veri big...keke...

2010-04-12T23:12:00.003+08:00

Off, big quarrel

ytd actually working time is 3 to 11...but suddenly the supervisor call and ask me to work at 5 to 1 ca some staff stomach pain...den i say okie loh...told lao bi but he nv tell me he going to meet his mum after tat so i was kind of piss off...ca he like everything will wait till thing happen or wat den say...but in the end it was settle alittle bit...maybe after tat de quarrel is my fault bah...being to unreasonable...ca i wanted to drop the cheque but i haven write my acc num and all...so i wanted to write while walk...and the word turn out veri ugly and i start scold him...i noe it's my fault...but i jus donno why...i admit tat this is not the first time im unreasonable...but i jus donno why i keep giving u attitude...and i even told him i wanna break...but he don wan to...i mean yar it's my fault and maybe the whole quarrel is i who started it...aiyar...i jus donno wat's wrong wif me...

today i agreed on meeting lao bi...went to have dinner at hougang mall...while eating i kept thing...why do i have to be so fuck up...why i have change to a totally not me...i always hate to do thing tat i don like on ppl...but why am i doing thing tat hate on him...he don own me anything...i totally noe how he feel..but why am i still treating him like this...i admit i told myself to not treat him like now how i treat him...but when ever i tired there is always somthing tat will stop me...and make me treat him so unreasonable...i noe everyone one day will give up...one day will sick and tired of how ppl treat them...i really wish to treat him better...why even ever i say break to him...i wont feel any sadness...is i noe he wont break wif me or is i too cold blooded??...maybe ur will think is ca i don have feeling for him...but why will i feel jealous when i noe he tok to gal be it the past or now...and i donno why i jus love to dig out his past...today went to read his whole post he had...and i start complaining about those sweet post he wrote when he was wif her and places tat he bring her to...movie tat they watch...i and him hardly go out...but he and her everytime meet will go somewhere walk...the movie they watch is so damn lot...but i and him...less den 10 i guess...but im sure less den 20...the month he and her and i and her is the same...but why the movie and place they went is lot more...and when she sick he will post it on his blog...yar...i mean past is past no matter how jealous i am or wat he can do nth to eras the past...nobody can treat everyone the same...but why am i asking him to treat me the way he treat her...why do i always wanna dig out the past of him and her when he did not even dig out my past when im wif him...i was like this in the past...why have i change so much...my blood is really colder den ice...why did i turn in to such a ass...wats the reason tat i turn into an ass...

haix...i noe this post is a nag...but i jus feel tat since im an ass why do i have to let ppl think tat his the ass and not me...well...changing is hard...it's even hard if the donno wats the reason and u have to change...i hope after this post i will become a better person...a person wifout a bloody attitude...

sorry baby...ur not the person at fault...im the person tat is at fault...jus tat i nv dare to admit...maybe is ca i don wanna admit it's my fault so i keep giving u attitude...there is nth i can say only sorry...i wont say i will change...ca words means nth but action...and i hope i really can mean it...

shall stop my post here...anyway sorry for this long long post...LOL

2010-04-08T23:24:00.003+08:00

Movie, Off Day, Sleepless nite...

7th april

today off...wake up prepare all jiu go lao bi house...after tat mrt to vivo to watch movie...long nv watch movie wif lao bi liao...we watch ju-on...means...i find it a waste of my money...it's diff from all the ju-on movie...it's not so scary which it should be...and the story all no link...all i can say is it the worst ju-on movie i ever watch...after movie jiu go hougang mall...eat leh jiu go home...ytd stupid lao bi took my baby yoshi away...hai me cant sleep...>=(...but today he gif me back my baby yoshi...hahax...awww if wifout baby yoshi i really cant sleep i jiu die liao...if one day he lost i don nid sleep liao...

8th april

today i off again...shuang rite...but tml working liao...haix sian...tml go work sure will kana nag by supervisor for being late...='( ca ytd one of the supervisor call lao bi to tell him tat the other supervisor angry...ca i late...aiyo...also not i wan de mah...i take bus also not plane...*tu tu mouth* this month no intensive liao $100 plus neh!! sua nvm...next month can get...but i shy to see the supervisor >_<...ca i keep late...now i must super early wake up so i wont late...got to wake up 3 hrs before work...hope tml on jiu wont late leh bah...so i can get my intensive and they wont think bad about me...=) one stone kill two bird bird...hohoho *evil face*...i go sleep loh...if not wait lao bi scold me again...keke...tonight sleeping wif baby yoshi...one day i try see if i really izzt cant sleep wifout baby yoshi...hehe...ohoh...tml while i working baby bring baby yoshi home...keke...after tat den bring baby yoshi come find me after work...keke...

awww...work work work...i don like work!! *sob*

lOve babyy yOshi..

lOve stupid laO bi...

2010-03-27T23:01:00.002+08:00

bOo!~

it has be i long long long long time i haven blog leh...my blog is growing webs leh...LOL...well many things happen this pass few months....

22March

went to take bus to find lao bi...well i missed the bus...so i waited for the next bus...but guess wat...i suddenly felt so super unwell...and felt like fainting...so i faster go sit down...BUT before i can reach the seat...there it go...black out...so i anyhow walk...and i actually fall flat on the chair...-__-...and i still stupid stupid stand up and walk to i donno where...and i kick dao the rubbish bin...i den noe tat i walking to donno where...after tat i go sit down...ca my phone and wallet drop at the chair when i fall..-___-...us finally come leh...i again try to find the sit in darkness...rest awhile jiu back to normal leh...and i was covered wif sweat...and i keep thinking izzt i dreaming or real de...but in the end it's real ca the chill tat i going to gif lao bi kana crush by me...so i throw the whole chill away...and my bag kana the chill...went to lao bi house to wash...i keep shouting and scolding him...for donno wat reason...den end up i gif up i let him help me wash my bag...keep got the chill smell...

23March

went to interview at lao bi de job...the pay not bad...i still can claim off...tml start working leh...after interview went to T2 to eat...after tat go lao bi house sleep...ca wake up early...

24March

today first day of work went for lunch wif lao bi today..went to T2 to eat again...after tat went back to work...today 1st day of work they jiu throw alone at top for i think an hour plus??...after tat wait for lao bi finish work jiu go home leh...

25March

today is 2nd day...i tot today i wont be working alone..who noe they throw me along at top...but luckily i don nid much help...^^...today lao bi wait my dismiss...den go eat jiu go home leh...

26March

today is 3th day...lao bi told me ytd tat the supervisor say let me try alone at top...piss off by one guy over there...1st time i call down...i ask for supervisor before he ask me why he say this to me"u wan call supervisor go up ar?" i was like f*** i got so useless mah...den i say loudly no...jus call the supervisor...den i forget wat i ask supervisor for...den 2nd time heng he nv say the same thing...he jus help me call the supervisor...ca i donno how to use JCB LOL...weird payment name...den the supervisor tell me top don have...so the customer have to pay cash...and he wanna pay me jap yen...and i donno how...so the supervisor teach me...hahax...told lao bi about tat stupid guy...still can down there act say all those thing...argh...nvm...don wanna care about him...

27March

today alone at top...well from ytd on i jiu will be alone at top leh...but once pass ready to use i jiu nid go downstairs...awww die...i sure stupid stupid de...kana scold nvm...i don wanna pay money...LOL...today lao bi wait me dismiss from work again...today alot of ppl unlike weekdays...hardly see dao alot of customer...can sleep...today wan sleep also cant...stand till leg pain...after tat jiu go eat subway jiu go home leh...

2009-07-24T23:07:00.002+08:00

slipper to sch , movie , baby's jacket , 2nd quarrel, cough and flu...

woke up at 6.45am today jus to morning call baby...heee...awhile jiu went to bath...msged babymeifang and jijinah tell them wear slipper to sch...reach sch...was chatting happily...suddenly heard someone calling us...so we went over...kana catch slipper...meifang wanted to gif ez-link...i told her not to and go one side to tok about it...we wasted half and hour...in the end we went in by bus 2 de gate...and nth happen...waste our time...so we skip 1 lesson...slack at toilet den at 10am jiu went to eat...LOL...after tat jiu go for next lesson...kana piss off by loud speaker...teacher also kana piss of by her...only teacher ren...if not loud speaker sure kana scold till like shit de...after lesson jiu go work...WHOOOO...1 full basket of towels...the side still got towel...infront is i alone fold...after tat...babymeifang and jijinah help me fold...i keep walking non-stop...got to keep towel...pack also...so messy lah...work for 1hr30mins today...after tat run to cafe 2 to find jijinah...to take my bag and see her new bf...LOL...after tat jiu bus to baby house...sleep awhile while baby go bath...after tat chagne jiu go AMK hub...saw baby de fren...they prank baby...so bad of them!!...went to watch The Haunting In Connecticut...stupid baby keep scarying me...but i manage to scared baby also...LOL...by jumping up...-___-...after movie jiu went to eat...while walking to S11 saw pasiarmalam...bought taiwan sausage...one for me and baby...baby say he hardly see ppl tat love taiwan sausage...ate tom yam noodle today...was so hot nar...and jiu nice today got cough...baby forget so he buy tom yam for me...was "fight" for the noodle...ca baby don wan my cough become worst...so he ate the rest...keep telling him don eat die die wanna eat...stupid baby!!...after tat baby went to buy taiwan sausage again...and bundong...he forget he jus ate chill things...den in the end he stomach pain...while waiting for bus i wear baby de jacket...i look like nv wear pants...-___-...after tat walk long way from hougang plaza to my home...donno should i say i made a rite or wrong decision to walk long way home...was sneeze non-stop for a few min...less den 5mins a think...called baby tok about some stuff jiu go sleep leh...my nose got water...LOL...keep sneezing!!...my head feels so donno heavy or pain or both...hope nth happens tml...

tats all for today!!

buai buai!!~

xiiaOpiiggy~

sOrry for everything today baby...did not mean to spoilt ur mood...anyway...i lOve yOu...

2009-07-23T23:03:00.002+08:00

yummy lunch , Gastric pain , 1st quarrel

woke up at 7AM today...bath...jiu morning call baby...jijinah going sch at 11...perlin nv come sch...only babymeifang got come for 1st lesson...ask babymeifang to don so early reah sch...ca i meeting baby...reach sch jiu go cafe 1 buy things eat...not careful make till something erm pervert...LOL...and wats wrong eat hot dog...LOL...went to take lift...3 guys look at me while am eating the hot dog...too prevert and horny i guess...i was not playing wif the stupid hot dog...and eating it normally...i feel like asking them this..."eat hot dog got wrong??...wats so nice to look at"...but i tell myself ren..don find problem...LOL...they leave i den tell babymeifang...one of the guy still can tap his fren to look at me...-__-...msg baby and tell him about this...baby saw me at lunch today...got to see baby for awhile today...hehe...jijinah bought chill chicken, sushi...babymeifang and jijinah went to buy drinks and mee...asked them wat about me...they tot i wanna my money...den babymeifang gif me 20cents...den i HUH?!?!...den both of them blur...den i tell them..i nid pay ur how much...they say don nid...LOL...eat till super full...and some ass actually spoilt my mood...keep staring at me...like i alien...told baby about this...ca thoes gals is from there class de...jijinah keep on they to hong me...keep telling me they stare at me ca i more pretty den them...den i keep on say nid always stare de me...stare till cant stare den turn away...den jijinah say if she is me she sure go find problem wif those gals...den she say i veri li hai...can ren...i ren ca i don wanna so much problem...ca i not tat free...-___-...PE slacked at the chair outside indoor sports hall...was so damn hot...awhile babymeifang jiu go find perlin...jijinah leh..pei me wait ca she going to find the guy later...but in the end the guy not free...she still can say waste her perfume...i was like......spary till so nice smell for wat...and she actually spary it on me also...stupid!!...after tat jiu go meet baby...pei him go home...again...baby ask me to sleep for awhile...tired sleeping...suddenly teacher call me...ask me tml wanna go work mah...den i say okie loh...did not went home change ca veri late leh...so str8 go eat...i suddenly emO on the bus...den had a small quarrel wif baby...and my gastric was in pain...we drop at donno where and went to eat...and my gastric gets more and more pain...pain till i in bus still can sweat...and i nv tok...get down bus...i ans baby...and he was like kinda of happy...ca i finally tok...>__<...went home pack bag eat the awful medi jiu go sleep leh...

tats all for today...

buaibuai!~

xiiaOpiiggy~

baby...sOrry for today...i lOve yOu!

2009-07-22T23:08:00.002+08:00

whole day wif dOmO , slipper to sch , froggie!!

tOday woke up at 6AM..slack awhile jiu go bath...ca lazy to make-up...bath till half way raining...-__-...was damn heng...LOL...morning call bibi jiu go eat breakfast...so decide to wear slipper to sch...msg bibi instead of babymeifang...LOL...noe it after sch on the bus...>__<...went out to take the lift wif dOmO on my hand...take bus 27 still holding...i hold dOmO all the way till i went home change...LOL..while waiting for lift saw bibi de fren jiu noe bibi coming down leh...hehe...show bibi the dOmO in my jacket..heee...after tat jiu went for class leh...lunch babymeifang go disturb bibi...stupid babymeifang!!...ask bibi come...ROAR!!...bibi saw the dOmO on my hand tell me to keep i say don wan...heee...after jiu go lab work liao...1 hr $5...fold towel and keep the towel...sorting out towel also...half an hour jiu done leh...but teacher toking to me...going 2pm den left lab...hahax...last lesson was hoping to see bibi..but kana catch by teacher...so no choice...got to go in class...was playing dating game...teacher read till my idea teacher say wah...this guy so gentleman...was crapping and distubing babymeifang...hahax...told babymeifang...if am a guy my gf sure veri xin fu...den babymeifang str8 nod head and say if ur a guy i first to chase u...hahax...dismiss leh jiu waited for bibi...baymeifang , perlin and jijineh pei me wait...after tat jiu say bye bye to them jiu walk to bus stop wif bibi and his fren...went to bibi house...sleep awhile will bibi went to bath...after tat jiu take bus to houngang...went home change...jiu walk to buangkok to eat...after tat jiu walk to compasspoint...walk pass the froggie path...i was so scared...stupid bibi keep scarying me...pointing those frog to me...everytime saw frog sure will squeeeze bibi de hand...walk till half way...i pull bibi and run...LOL...walk walk awhile jiu go buy Mr.Bean jiu walk back home...nid walk pass the froggie path AGAIN!!...after bibi sent me home jiu take bus home liao...

tats all for today!!~

tata!~

xiiaOpiiggy~

baby I lOve yOu!!

2009-07-21T23:06:00.003+08:00

dOmO!

woke up at 6AM today...bath, make-up...time up jiu morning call bibi again...today perlin nv come sch...on MC...left me, babymeifang and jijinah...manage to see bibi for awhile today at lunch time...heeee...sch ends at 5PM...went home change jiu go meet bibi...bibi was telling me about the surprise he got for me...heee...it's a dOmO...bibi tell me if i buy new bag can hang dOmO there...but i won't...ca i scared lost...lost de hua i sure veri sad de T.T...went to hougang mall to eat...hahax...eat leh jiu go home...ca tml nid early wake up...den bibi don wan i tired...hehe...Muacks bibi~...

tats all for today!!~

tata!~

xiiaOpiiggy~

bibi..lOve yOu!~

2009-07-20T23:08:00.003+08:00

bread , meeting baby in the morning!!

woke up at 6AM today...bath leh jiu go make the bread...times up jiu morning call baby...make the bread for my mother also...LOL...come home tell me my bread not nice!!...den i tell her my fren say nice...LOL...babymeifang say my bread nice to eat...ca the egg thick thick de...went to buy vitasoy...pass the bread and vitasoy to baby at lunch time...after eating and drinking finish the bread and vitatsoy jiu slack and rot till 2PM wif babymeifang...perlin sick...jijineh leh...go out wif guy...decided to skip SMB...LOL...ca loud speaker nv go...den veri sian..no one to tok to...so went home change and wait for baby de msg...jiu go find him...after tat jiu go eat...go baby de fav place to eat...baby ordered hokkien mee, black carrot cake and the oyster thing...stomach donno why today can eat alot of things...eat finish hokkien mee still can eat carrot cake and the oyster thing...power rite...hoho...after tat jiu bus home...stupid bus...make me so giddy...felt so unwell...finally get down the stupid bus...den jiu walk home liao...waking up at 6am tml again...

tats all for today!~

buaibuai!~

xiiaOpiiggy~

baby...i lOve lOve yOu!!

2009-07-19T23:00:00.003+08:00

cookie , bread and cheese!!

woke up at 12pm plus...msg bibi while his sleeping...went down to buy condense milk for the cookie...smash the biscuit and mix it wif condense milk...and finally it's 5PM!! YES!! bibi woke up liao...heee...bi went to prepare jiu take bus meet me...was shy to gif bi the cookie...hahax...was hiding it from bibi...but gave it to him in the end...walked to hougang mall to eat...eat leh jiu go buy bread and cheese jiu go home liao...ca bi and me are tired!!...waking up at 6am tml...to make breakfast or should i say lunch...hahax...for bi and babymeifang...and ofca for myself also...hahax...

tats all for today!~

tata!~

xiiaOpiggys~

baby...i lOve yOu yoU!

2009-07-18T23:00:00.004+08:00

soya bean milk, boring day, audi, shugo chara~

tOday whole day stay at home...ca bibi went for chalet...woke up at 8.40 ca of some reason...12.40 also woke up ca of some reason after tat jiu nv go back to sleep leh...on com play game...noon play audi met one guy keep asking me some lame question...like i go for wat kinda of guys...den ask if i will wanna have a handsome bf...wat i pretty a not and more...LOL...den keep playing the same song over and over again...listen till i damn sian...every about 3 game he sure choose the song flying duck...play till half way super sian...keep on miss...1 ca he keep playing the same song...2 is ca i suddenly think of bibi...after tat jiu go watch anime...suddenly remember i veri long time nv watch shugo chara leh...watch till half way suddenly feel like drawing shugo chara de Ran...in facebook am her neh...heee...so happy...she is jus so cute nar...told bibi i drawing shugo chara den bibi ??? ca it's a gal gal de anime mah of ca he wont noe lah...den bibi say he wanna help me draw shugo chara out...heee...whooo today post is short...hahax...today whole day drink soya bean milk...nv drink other water...LOL...power rite...hahax

tats all for today!~
buaibuai!~
xiiaOpiiggy~

baby...i lOve yOu!

2009-07-17T13:04:00.001+08:00

woke up late , lunch time , big problem i created for baby!!

tOday woke up late again...woke up at 6.50am...faster go brush teeth jiu call baby...but baby nv ans...i tot he went to bath...so i msged him...nv reply...went to make bread...make finish liao baby still nv reaply...jiu sent him one more msg...also nv reply...so i keep calling baby...about 3th or 4th call baby den ans...and his voice is those jus wake up de voice...actually wanted to ask him why nv reply and ans my call de...heard his voice i shock...asked him some question jiu ask him faster go perpare...after tat i jiu take bus go sch liao...was hoping 10 faster come...teacher dismiss us early...den stupid jijinah wanna make up for donno wat ****...LOL...was rushing her...ca i wan go down buy vitasoy...buy liao she keep on ask us where to eat...den gif those stupid face...babymeifang also can see...den she tell me...den i complain to her and tell her if she dare kp i sure kp back de...LOL...tok to babymeifang half way jiu saw baby out of the lift...LOL...whole person shy...pass baby the vitasoy jiu walk to campus heaven...baby took the bread to eat...babymeifang say baby eat till veri happy...like his mummy make for him de...den stupid perlin add more salt...say wat...wat mummy is laOpO...LOL...den awhile jijinah pull me to sit wif her...saw baby face...plus i keep on think...baby sure eat till veri sian liao...den i keep telling them...he like eat till veri sian liao..den babymeifang say who ask u make so many...den i faster msg baby...but he say he not sian...i noe he will reply me like this leh...wanted to take the rest from baby de...but i donno how should i tell baby...in the end baby eat all finish...den nite den tell me the truth...tat he actually cant eat liao...keep forcing himself to eat...stupid baby!!...i 12.30 like tat jiu dismiss...if not ca of Ma Tay i wont be waiting like an ass hole!!...about 1 she den sent a msg to my fren saying mon den she will see us...freak her...make me wait for nth...nv wait i jiu can reach home earlier...reach home bath jiu bus to baby house liao...wait for the bus till veri bu nai fan...LOL...after 10 - 15min bus finally come...LOL...reach baby house jiu chit-chat...was freaking tired...wanted to sleep de...but......in the end i created a big big problem for baby..>__<...baby am sorry...haix other den sorry...i donno wat i can do or say leh...feel damn bad...feel like am baby de unluck star...told baby this and he is quite angry..>__<...after tat jiu take bus to hougang on the way to bus stop saw baby de mummy...called her aunty but donno she got hear it a not...after tat jiu walk to bus stop take bus 62...reach hougang mall jiu went to eat...ate quite fast ca hungry...baby was msging so he eat finish few sec later i jiu eat finish leh...LOL...after tat went to buy my biscuit...on the way i saw the sweet i like...i keep saying don wan...but baby keep on wanna buy for me...after tat i keep on push baby to Mr.Bean he keep on ask me go buy my biscuit...den i go buy...i manage to pay it...buy finish i pull baby to Mr.Bean bought the stuff we wan jiu walk to my house there liao...was telling baby before i stead wif him i already told him i don like it when my bf keep on spend money on me...was kind of angry...so baby allow my to treat him every once a week...ca everytime go out eat is baby pay de...i don like this kinda of feeling i guess...LOL...my jus a weird gal...after tat...we start toking about our mummy on the way to hougang green...LOL...and i told baby...i think ur mummy can be good fren wif my mummy...LOL...look for my hand lotion jiu went to my house there de garden to chit-chat...baby and me got itchy itchy on our legs!!...i keep scatch den baby keep stopping my...don wan wait i scatch till bleed...after tat jiu go home leh...almost forget to see baby till he walk off...walk half way den suddenly feel i like forget to do something...LOL...so i faster u-turn...heee...

tats ll for today~

tata!!~

xiiaOpiiggy~

baby i lOve yOu

2009-07-16T22:58:00.004+08:00

happy , shy plus face red , dog poo?!?!

tOday baby morning call me...ans the call and my first word is mmh...LOL...den wat baby say i mmh all the way...LOL...super tired...lay on my bed for awhile den go bath...bath leh go make breakfast eat...den not cafeful make dao my rite thumb...eat leh jiu go take bus...on the bus baby told me he trying to kill time ca like this he den maybe will get to see me...heee...i reach sch first den ask baby he at where...baby going to reach liao i jiu faster run go buy vitasoy...waited for sometime but nv see dao baby so msg baby at him where he...LOL...baby msg me but i nv see dao...saw is only when i put down the phone wif him...wanted to go toilet de...but baby suddenly call me...so i stop there...saw baby faster u-turn...and started jumping...LOL...after tat baby stand behide me...pass him the vitasoy he jiu go in find his fren leh...after tat babymeifang pei me go toilet was peeping at baby...come back tat time saw the vitasoy on the table...heee...was telling babymeifang..."he drink leh he drink leh!!"...LOL...baby kana scold by teacher for being late...=( ...lunch time went to meet baby...super shy nar...den stupid babymeifang keep disturb me till my face red!!...tml if i nv early dismiss and her bf really got come wait for her after sch...i make sure she blush even more den i do...LOL...after tat went to the toilet...come out saw baby waiting there for me...he was rushing to go...LOL...den i keep pull him...ca i wanted a kiss...keke...after tat jiu went back liao...babymeifang, jijinah and perlin see Ms Tay like see dao ghost...LOL...all run...reach lift there i die die also don wanna go up...ca i wanted to wait till baby go up class i den go take lift...heeee...den today PE teacher nv come...so another teacher take over...alot of my classmate go home...but i choose to stay...ca i wanna wait for baby to dismiss...hahax...went down to buy snacks...awhile jiu went to cafe 1 inside...i was complaining smelly so went out to sit...waited for baby...went to toilet...den awhile jiu go atm there wait for baby...saw baby walking down the stairs...heeee...after tat jiu walk to bus stop wif baby and his frens and jijinah and perlin...was making cat sound...LOL...after tat stupid jijinah start to disturb me...so i disturb her back...LOL...baby sent me home he jiu take bus home leh...bath den go down wait for baby liao...slowly walk to bus stop...bought vitasoy on the way there...heee...took bus to donno where to eat...super pressure...LOL...ca baby fren siting infront of me...told baby but baby say even if i sit infront of u u also will pressure de...den i nv say anything...ca it's true...LOL...ate quite fast...LOL...den baby ask me why today u eat so fast...LOL...den i tell him...tok more...ca u tok u will eat slower...den his fren laugh...LOL...ca i don wan wait all eat finish den only left me this slow poke still eating mah...eat finish baby jiu chit-chat wif his fren show one of his fren the video he show me today...a gay dancing nobody...LOL...they chit-chat awhile jiu go take bus back to hougang...walk a longer way home...hahax...and i donno i is luckly or unlucky...i step on freaking dog poo!!...LOL...no light shining at the grass...den i jus walk...sob!!...went to buy bread jiu take lift go home liao...first thing i do when i reach home is go wash my freaking shoes...LOL...meeting baby at lunch time tml...YES!!!...jus love it...got to see baby at lunch time...heee...oyar...next week my sch start at 9am EVERYDAY...sian ar...tired neh...everyday nid 6am wake up...only thur can 7am wake up...sob...

tats all for today...
tata!~
xiiaOpiiggy~

baby...i lOve yOu...

2009-07-15T23:04:00.002+08:00

happy , shy , back tooth!!~

tOday woke up late AGAIN!!!6.30 wake up...stand at window...ca lazy to make-up...stand till 6.50 like tat den go bath...bath leh jiu go eat breakfast...ca still got time...eat till half way RAINING!!!...heavy rain somemore...msged babymeifang and jijinah ask if they wanna wear slipper to sch...jijinah say anything but ask me to tell perlin to bring for her...-___-...den babymeifang leh...say don wan...so i wear sch shoes to sch...in the end my whole freaking shoes WET!!...it so uncomfortable...on the way call baby 2 times....but nv ans...so i msg baby...LOL...and he jus wake up...this shows he is tired also...waited for jijinah at bus stop...saw my ex there...LOL...den i fake fake nv see dao him...jijinah reach liao jiu went in sch...awhile jiu go put bag in locker den go lab for make-up lesson...am the model again...ca i lazy do work plus am tired...LOL...teacher come look at my face say got dark eye ring...den i str8 cover my face....LOL...ca shy...den next lesson is Ms Tay class...freaking sleeping plus cold...so i tell babymeifang i veri cold...den suddenly she hold my hand....den i ask her...u is cold or hot...den she ans me...u say u cold wat...LOL...was shock and touched...heee...den Ms Tay teach finish her lesson she jiu start her care lesson...ask anyone wanna tok to her...no one say yes...LOL...den she suddenly point to me babymeifang jijinah and perlin...LOL...say she wanna see us...den i was like WTF!!...ask us why we tok in class...den i tell her i tired till got no mood to tok...LOL...den they start to say about work...my head even more WTF!!...den i keep on like move here move there den Ms Tay see liao jiu ask us go for lunch...LOL...she tot i is bored tats why like this but is not...LOL...waited for lift...so long...so i wanted to stairs down...stupid jijinah and perlin don wan...so babymeifang pei me stairs down...stand at the lift outside well waiting for them...and guess wat...suddenly i saw BABY!!!...was point to babymeifang...heee...but baby nv see dao me...LOL...went to cafe 1 but full...so i say later 1 we den eat loh...den all of them say okie...so we pei jijinah go make-up...LOL...was emo-ing on the way to toilet...LOL...babymeifang and jijinah tired to cheer me up...but all useless...only jijinah candy manage to cheer me up a bit...LOL...was standing beside jijinah while she make-up...suddenly look at the side saw sweet...den i faster go to her left to take sweet...LOL...den she saw my mood better a bit den she tell them heng she got bring sweet...LOL...den i stare at one place half way stupid jijinah ask me help her draw her eyes...den i tell her i no mood...den she say nvm...try...LOL...den i haix first den help her draw...LOL...after tat went to eat...baby was kind of shock by the way i tok to him...LOL...ca tat time really got no mood...den i faster faster eat finish...eat finish liao jiu blow babymeifang and jijinah to faster eat...LOL...ca i wanna go find baby >__<...waited baby at business block there...saw him walking i shy...LOL...faster act like nv see...den babymeifang tell me he come liao...den i say i noe...i act i donno only...LOL...den baby keep come closer to me i keep moving...LOL...ca i shy shy...hahax...pass baby the sweet jiu stump my feet and walk off liao...went in to seng city...nth to buy...so i come out...and baby is jus at the next shop...LOL...wanted to exchange sweet wif baby de...ca scared wait baby eat fisherman till sian...but stupid baby don wan...i was about to go in he jiu go out of the shop liao...go in nth to buy again...so i come out...find place to sit...den suddenly from far i saw baby...den i tell babymeifang baby at there...LOL...den i shy shy again...faster cover face...hahax...keep looking at baby till he go up class...went toilet jiu go up class...was late for last lesson...thanx to me...i walk wrong side tats why late for class...and am so happy tat am late for class...ca on the way to class i look down and i saw baby again!!...was jumping and point to babymeifang...and she go shout EH!! BOY!!...i whole person shy...LOL...saw baby look up i faster u-turn...LOL...my hand was shaking...hahax...went into class...saw one empty table...was standing there suddenly whole class look at me...i tot wat happen...suddenly babymeifang say my classmate say there got xiao ming...LOL...den i move to another table...den i tell babymeifang no wonder everyone looking at me...i tot wat happen...today actually is 5 dismiss de...but teacher 4 jiu let us go liao...do our work go throught jiu can go home liao...den i faster msg baby tell him i dismiss liao...den jus nice baby also dismiss...went to CVC ca jijinah wanna use com...LOL...babymeifang pei me see if baby come leh mah...LOL...when baby come liao i shy...don dare go out...babymeifang push me out...LOL...saw baby i even more shy...slowly jiu okie liao...baby fren act like they donno him...LOL...so bad of them...baby sent me home jiu go home do his stuff jiu come find wo liao...waited at 27bus stop...ca at first baby don wan me to wait for him at the bus stop he get down...ca don wanna ma fan me plus scared i go wrong bus stop...LOL...but i noe where is the bus stop...so i ran over to the stupid bus stop...LOL...went to hougang green...look for my jelly bean...but don have...so went to eat...but today baby eat only...i play game...LOL...and from my side view...i can see baby spoon keep on go up...den i ask baby...u don nid to chew or/and sallow de ar....den baby say got ar...den i tell him i keep on see ur spoon go up...while playing game...LOL...baby tot i lie to him...tot i looking at him...BLEH!!...eat finish jiu went to my house de garden again...chit-chat...sweet sweet again...heee...after tat went to my house de shop...and yes...baby buy gif me my HL choco milk today again!!...heee...oyar...my back tooth finally grow liao...after waiting for so so long...but it hurts...when ever i eat!!...sob...T.T...well am going to have a new tooth soon...cant wait for it to grow out....toothie am waiting...grow up quick...hahax

tats all for today!!~
tata!~
xiiaOpiiggy~

baby...i lOve lOve lOve yOu!!~...

2009-07-14T22:44:00.005+08:00

toilet , sch , HL milk<33

tOday woke up late...6.30 wake up...rush to bath...tot can make it on time to call baby wake up...but when i bath come out saw baby msg...LOL...tml i mus mus wake up at 6am liao...so i can call baby wake up...^^...first lesson damn boring...fall asleep 2 times...woke up thanx to my class de malay ***** not i bad lah...it jus...really CMI man...only got one word fit some of them *****!!!...today sch should end at 5pm...but one of the teacher nv come so ms tay take over so we can go home early...whole class kana scold by her...ca alot of ppl nv go for ytd SBM lesson...LOL...after sch jiu faster rush home change den cab go find baby...again...i went one big round den find dao baby de house...LOL...chit-chat and sweet sweet...awhile i feel so tired...LOL...baby ask me to sleep...was kind of shy but in the end i fall asleep...so so tired nar...after tat jiu go take bus to hougang...baby and me donno where should we go walk walk...ca hougang mall nth to walk...so he went to pass things to his fren first...den after tat we jiu go block 600+ eat...chow baby eat chicken rice so fast...is like fast as go toilet wash hand or pee come out he jiu eat finish liao...LOL...after eating jiu go my house de garden slack...keke...while walking was playing wif baby...we walk same leg same speed...den baby keep trying to walk diff leg wif me...but how hard he try also same leg...LOL...den i sing one baby song to baby...heee...baby was smiling...keke...reach my house there de garden jiu chit-chat...disturb baby...sweet sweet wif baby...heee...after tat jiu went to my house downstairs de shop buy drink...heee...baby buy for me HL choco milk again!!...heee...btw today went to toilet 9 times...am so healty..^^....but veri xin ku...ca i keep on feel like peeing...

baby lets try to make it a everlasting love between us okie...

tats all for today bahh...
tata~
xiiaOpiiggy~

baby...i lOve yOu lOts!!~

2009-07-13T22:19:00.003+08:00

meeting baby in the morning, waxing, skip class, HL choco Milk!!

morning suddenly woke up at 6.50am...and yes am late...i should wake up at 6am...rush to bath...called baby to wake up...but baby nv pick up call so i msg him...ca am rushing for time...explain to baby why i nv call him the 2nd time...>_<...faster faster make up jiu went down to take bus leh...my hair is like freaking wet...-__-"...saw my fren at bus stop wave hello awhile bus jiu come leh...and again...bad luck i guess...1st time take bus 27 in the morning traffic jam...i was like SHIT!!...i sure late de...die liao loh...den nid to make baby wait...was hoping for the jam to faster start moving...lesser red light...LOL...finally i reach...msg baby i reach leh...he jiu go find me...and my freaking phone stuck again...screen BLACK...cant off or on...so i took out the stupid bat and try on again jiu okie liao...was listening to MP3 and YES jiu nice baby going to reach my MP3 play nobody...and stupid baby reach tat time scared me...i was looking on my left he suddenly stand infront of me...i was like who standing infront of me...i turn i kana shock...LOL...den i gif baby listen to the song tat my MP3 is playing...den baby tot i turn to the song de...den i tell baby my MP3 last song is nobody...LOL...was listening to it while smiling to myself...LOL...msged babymeifang and jijinah ask them where are they...babymeifang say she going to reach leh so i ask her to wait me at bus stop...perlin was so blur...i saw her looking at me...but nv notice she is actually looking at me...i get down the bus i tell babymeifang how blur perlin is...hahax...and well babymeifang saw baby and start to disturb me!!...when baby going up to class she disturb me by say...why so fast go up class...ppl will miss u de leh...den i was like...Shhh!!...LOL...after tat jiu is waxing...jijinah make till i feel like crying lah...so pain loh...babymeifang make de at less better...the leg tat jijinah make now still red red...and not clean de...still got hair...>__<" after tat went for next class jiu is lunch...eat finish babymeifang start to say DLT lesson veri sian...den donno is her or who say about skip class...den i say skip half lesson lah...den from cafe 2 plan till 3th floor toilet...LOL...in half an hour i pee for 4 times...power rite...i think i cant eat finish food den drink water...LOL...or maybe is my body don nid so much water...aiyo i donno lah...in the end we decied to skip 2o clock de class...so i msg baby tell him i skip class...baby tell me don wan...but i hack care...ca the lesson is really damn boring lah...but skip for this week only...no more next time leh...i guess?? cab to baby house...he play com awhile...den we chit-chat...blah blah blah~...after tat jiu take bus 62 to hougang went to eat...eat finish chit-chat awhile jiu walk home...at hougang mall baby saw 3 of his fren...one is i noticed de...ca baby was i think msging bah...den i tell baby his fren infront...LOL...den i walk to one side...hahax...i shy bah...LOL...donno...hahax...after tat went home change cloth den wash my uni take out my contact lens...ca veri dry and annoying...remove make up jiu go down find baby leh...chit-chat wif baby suddenly tok to some topic...i whole person damn sad...feel like crying liao...but i ren...hahax...den baby try to change to a happier topic...hahax...den awhile baby went to buy HL chco milk for me...heee...so sweet of him...well the choco milk taste much much more better den the one i buy it myself =X...was drinking it slowly...den baby suddenly take the milk and feed me drink...*shy shy*...heee...chit-chat awhile jiu go home loh...keke...

tats all for today...
tata~
xiiaOpiiggy~

baby...I lOve yOu!!~

2009-07-12T14:58:00.004+08:00

vivo, happy scared sad/piss off, 4th day outing wif baby!!

went to vivo wif baby, again we took bus 80 to vivo...went to vivo de top...the sky still veri bright...so i ask baby wanna go watch fish mah...den baby say okie loh...but i told baby i wanna hug hug first...LOL...hug till so shiok till i don wanna go watch fish liao...the wind blow plus i hugging baby...the feeling like in heaven...LOL...hug and kiss baby from i think going 6 or 6 plus till 9 plus...after tat went to eat..eat leh jiu MRT home...MRT infront got one couple the guy gif me a feeling like he kana force to go out wif the gal...the gal tok to him he hack care...wanted to tell baby de...but they infront so i diam diam...in the end the gal cry...LOL...nose red red de...den the guy start to care about her...LOL...fucking hate this kind of guy...one word...fucker... i donno which station got one freaking stupid drunk bangala come inside...he step in i jiu see him weird weird liao...keep looking at him like nobody business...LOL...slowly start to smell those beer de smelly smelly smell...den infront tat couple kana shock...i think ca he start to vimit leh bah...den they move till kinda of far...only left baby and me still sitting there...i was so damn freaking scared lah...jus donno why so so scared of bangalas...maybe ca of tat weird dream i had?? i donno...jus find them fucking horny...and tat seat no one dare to sit...only one gal dare to sit...LOL...she was playing wif her PSP...and well suddenly tat bangala make those vomit sound...and YES i feel freaking unwell...and i feel even more scared...was kinda of making my hand...LOL...den baby keep on tell me don scared going to reach leh...i keep see we at where...LOL...and yes finally WE GET DOWN the freaking MRT...i tot i save liao...and well bad luck i guess...going up the escalator got another bangala like drunk also...the face so damn near my tummy area there...and he was looking at donno were...my breast i think...he like see till so happy...still can sing song or donno wat shit...i already veri scared liao still got one more bangala make me even more scared...den i look at him i faster run up the escalator den in front is bangala so i stop half way...LOL...and well the stupid bangala walk up also...and mind was like shit!! stop rite there...i cant go up anymore...and slowly he going to reach where me and baby standing so i hack care liao faster run up the escalator...too scared bah...den i walk kinda of fast...normal speed of baby walking...which i always complain...he walk veri fast...did not notice till baby ask me why u walk so fast...LOL...den was like HUH!?!? fast meh...maybe i too scared liao bah...scared all the way till house behide de block...well baby did some stuff to kind of make me don think of jus now...LOL...was having fun...den slowly jiu nv think jiu happy liao...den suddenly phone ring...LOL...time to go home...go home jiu fan...long story...don wish to say...

tats all for today...
tata~
xiiaOpiiggy~

i lOve yOu!~

2009-07-12T11:42:00.003+08:00

Leg Muscle ACHE , 3th day outing wif baby!!

Ytd went plaza sing wif bibi...walked to cathay...so many ppl nor...den cant walk side by side wif bibi...while walking down the slope my leg muscle hurt like shit!!...den not careful squeeze dao bibi de hand...LOL...i notice it when he turn around and look at me..>___<...heee...finally we reach cathay...so so many ppl there...actually wanna watch Ice Age 3 de...but not fill jiu shi filling fast...den filling fast de sit veri infront...den i watch movie can see veri infront...ca i will giddy...LOL...i noe am weak...so we decided to go GV check...before going GV bibi bring me to one small small de shop to see domo...but domo sell finish liao...and a saw a green DINOSAUR...bibi keep on say not dinosaur...but it's a dinosaur!!...walked back to plaza sing...so so many ppl...the movie time of Ice Age 3 all so late de..so nv watch leh...went to otaku house...inside got bear bear!!...but i nv see dao...den i tell bibi no bear bear de...den bibi say got only don wanna tell u...LOL...but in the end bibi still tell me bear bear at where...heee...went to one shop saw many many bear bear...got baby de...so CUTE nor...was pointing it to bibi...den bibi ask me wan he buy for me a not...den i say don wan...=X...but one day i will go and buy it...muhahahaha...i have been looking for tat bear bear for quite some time leh...heheee...hope i go back there tat time bear bear will still be there waiting for me...saw many many bear bear and dinosaur!!!...keke~...after walking went to eat...bibi bring me to japenese foodcourt...ask me go see wat i wanna eat i die die don wan...LOL...in the end bibi order the same thing tat he order for himself for me...hehe...i eat half only he eat finish liao...den start looking at me...i whole person shy and stress...was having a hard time eating!!...in the end bibi take out his phone and watch video...heee...was drinking water den suddenly look up i see got rain drops i thought i see wrong den i look up more...LOL...raining...den i tell bibi...raining liao...slowly the rain get bigger...stupid bibi keep on bluff me say he veri cold...jus to take back his jacket...LOL...heng i nv believe...after tat jiu went walk walk was taking bibi jacket and my habit suddenly appear...-___-...my smelling habit...LOL...so i started to smell bibi de jacket...>__<...stupid bibi keep on wanna take back his jacket...LOL...i keep snatching it from him and tell him it's mine till i reach my house de lift...LOL...rain stop we jiu walk back to plaza sing...awhile jiu mrt to hougang leh...slack at my house behide there...keke...stupid bibi keep on disturb me...bleh!!...anyway...i had fun...heheee...

later going out wif bibi...to vivo...keke...i wanna make ytd thing happen today AGAIN!!!...muhahahaha...love love~

tats all for today...
tata~
xiiaOpiiggy

I lOve yOu~

bear bear and dinosaur!!~

2009-07-11T12:47:00.003+08:00

leg muscle ache, 2nd day outing wif bibibaby~

ytd went to vivo wif bibi...meet bibi at bus stop...my leg muscle hurts like shit...LOL...but nvm...den awhile bibi jiu reach leh...i was kinda of stupid plus dumb...LOL...ca bibi get down the bus den walk veri fast toward hougang mall there den i was thinking...tat one is bibi rite...ehh no leh...i don think so...but look like leh...should be no lah...aiyo call bibi den say...LOL...in the end is bibi...LOL...after tat jiu take bus 80 to vivo loh...it take 1hour plus to reach vivo from houngang...reach leh vivo jiu go in walk walk...went to find toys shop...LOL...on the way to toys shop we walk pass cinema den there got the sweet tat i always go vivo sure buy de...was pointing it to bibi...den bibi ask me wan a not den i say don wan..but in the end bibi buy for me...heeee...i choose sweet mango...keke...when i took the first bite i find it sweet...is the candy sweet or ca is bibi buy de...hhmmms...den after tat we jiu carry on find for my toy shop...one of the toy shop close down liao...so in the end only went to toysRus was looking at baby toys...LOL...nv really go play maybe ca bibi at there den shy...>__<...den when leaving tat time we walk pass one section got alont of transformer de...den bibi keep looking at it...he was so cute at tat time >_<...den i keep looking at him...den i asked him some question...heee...after tat jiu went to walk walk...den walk finish liao we jiu go top sit sit...heee...keep on disturbing bibi...call bibi den i hehe...LOL...was listening to song...den i choose all those love song...heee...den when nobody start to play i look at bibi den he smile smile...keke...after tat jiu walk to harbour front inter wait for bus 80...after sometime the stupid bus uncle finally wanna drive the stupid bus...and the bus only got me and bibi...LOL...slowly more and more ppl get up...was so so tired...the more i lay on bibi shoulder the more i feel like sleeping...LOL...but i was forcing myself not to fall asleep...but in the end i cant stand it liao den i close my eyes jiu fall asleep leh...heeee...after tat bibi jiu sent me home den he cab home again...den reach home remove make up change den tok to bibi awhile jiu go sleep leh...reach home tat time i can still smell bibi de smell...LOL...den i tell bibi when i was on the phone wif him...was finding were the smell come from...and finally i found out...it's from my hair...heee...after tat jiu went to bed...close eyes jiu lalaland liao...this show how tired i am...LOL...

tOday 1O plus mummy was toking so loudly den wake me up...manage to fall asleep but awhile jiu wake up leh...at 1O.45 like tat jiu wake up liao...den cant get back to sleep liao...LOL...so i went to brush my teeth...forget to pee...-___-...notice it at 12.11pm like tat...LOL...stupid plus blur...was super hungry when i wake up...LOL...later going out wif bibi...heee....oyar today morning when i off charger de switch i smell dao bibi de smell...den jiu auto smile liao...bi!~...i think u should bring me to mental hospital...i keep smiling to MYSELF!!!...

tats all for today leh...will write about today outing tml...keke
tata~
xiiaOpiiggy

btw...TONY TONY CHOPPER IS A BEAR!!!

2009-07-10T14:05:00.003+08:00

outing wif baby~

ytd sch start at 11am...after sch no pe so 3 jiu can go home leh...WHOO!!...went home wait for baby to get ready den go meet him...LOL...when i going to reach the place he is at i start to smile liao...LOL...crazy eh!?!?...after tat meet him leh...was shy so nv tok to him...LOL...jus keep smiling and smiling...from hougang mall to many many void deck...LOL...smile for 5HRS!!...smile till my cheeks there so sour...-__-...but jus cant control...LOL...den 12 like tat jiu reach home den baby cab home...

today sch start at 9am...bath all den go sch leh...again baby is late for sch...LOL...i ask him wan i pei him take bus 31 he say don nid...den nvm...i msg baby(meifang) and jijinah ask them where are they...LOL...all haven reach so i wait for them at bus stop...ca i wanna see baby also...keke...den he get down the bus ask me a few question jiu go for class leh...ca he late for 30mins plus liao...LOL...den go in sch jiu kana catch for earstick again...LOL...den i tell baby soon the teacher will noe who you liao...LOL...den awhile baby(meifang) and perlin jiu come liao follow by jijinah...den go cafe 1 buy milo and chat chat...was smiling all the way...LOL...den jijinah tell baby(meifang) say everytime i pause i sure smile...LOL...drink till half way feel like vomiting...LOL...but i still drink finish...den go up class see the board...SMB lesson cancel...there might be make up lesson...LOL...i was like shiok ar...10am jiu can go home liao...den wanted to wait for baby to dismiss de ca perlin waiting for meifang also mah...den end up baby at campus heaven wif his 2 fren...den me and 3 of them at cafe 2...long Q...and they say ask him come up lah...ca they wanna see him...LOL...den i say wan jiu go down lah...den jijinah say go down loh...even here so long Q...LOL...den i was rushing them faster faster...LOL...den baby(meifang) say i like got bf jiu hack care fren...den i don care them i walk fast fast...LOL...den baby(meifang) follow me...about to reach campus heaven i jiu scared smiling liao...LOL...saw baby de back den awhile he look back...i shy diao...LOL...at first i don wanna go in de...den stupid jijinah push me in...LOL...den they make me sit almost next to him...back facing back...LOL...they were eating and i was looking at them...donno why jus don feel like eating...den i tell them i not got baby i last month jiu come...LOL...jus donno why don feel like eating...every month sure will like this de...den after baby(meifang) and jijinah went for their lesson one classmate of mine join us...LOL...awhile i jiu change sit...ca my view veri hard to see him...LOL...den i don dare to tok to him...LOL...so i msg him...LOL...awhile jiu go home leh...haix baby get caught in the rain...ask him go bath first he don wan...D=< *angry*...later going out wif baby going...to vivo!!...my favourite place...LOL...love the nite view...love going the top at nite...hahax...

okie lah i go bath loh...
tats all for today~
tata...
xiiaOpiiggy

2009-07-08T21:14:00.002+08:00

the song nObOdy!!

tOday woke up at 6.20pm...LOL...went to bath and all...den jiu go sch liao...den reach sch went to buy milo...was so clamsy...i spilt the milo on my hand...-__-"...den i was eer-ing away...LOL...was trying to make baby and perlin turn back and look at me...den baby turn back ask me wat happen...den i look at my hand and start to er again...LOL...den she start to laugh and take out one tissuse for me...LOL...den went outside cafe 1 to eat...was eating my hashbrown half way saw one couple hold hand walk to class i think...den i start to diam diam again...LOL...after tat jiu go put bag at locker den go for class liao...

first lesson is art of make-up...teacher toking i was msging...LOL...and the teacher don even noe my msging...after teacher tok finish liao nid to start work liao...den i be model...den got photographer come take pic...LOL...i was in the pic too!!...was steal laughing ca shy..>__<"...den i tell myself don laugh if not veri ugly...so i act dao...-___-"...after tat i tell baby about it...den she was like uh huh...LOL...den jijinah use her cold hand to freaking touch my neck...LOL...i already veri cold liao...my fingers are also cold den she still put her cold finger on my neck...den she say wanna go home...ca not feeling well...LOL...only i noe the reason behide the going home...den i jus say out loud infront of baby and perlin...den baby was like orh...no wonder lah...LOL...ca she is go find bf not go home mah...after tat go cafe 1 got table no chair...so went to buy food den the circle circle there sit..baby and perlin buy the fruit drink bread and cake...i buy fruit drink only...ca donno why don feel like eating anything...den was walking there tat time saw one guy jump up den i was like...?????...den i saw something black black moving...LOL...it a cockroach!!...LOL...if it me i sure scream like hell...-___-...i nv tell baby and perlin untill they was chatting about their work thing den i sit infront of them den i suddenly laugh when no one was toking to me...den perlin kana shock...den she ask baby wat happen to me...den i tell them why i laugh...den they start to laugh also...LOL...

today saw donno 5 or 6 ...... LOL...count till forget count my plane...LOL...today my nose damn pain...touch only jiu pain liao...tat time is my left side de nose pain...now is rite side de...LOL...nose itchy rub tat time mus ren the pain...stupid loh...awww nose faster okie pls...LOL...tml sch start at 11am...YES!!!...tml actually is 3.30pm dismiss de but no PE so 2 jiu dismiss loh...YEAH...LOL...

tats all for today...
tata~
xiiaOpiiggy~

2009-07-07T21:54:00.002+08:00

Haix and counting day...

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tOday woke up at 6am...bath and all...and the water is freaking cold AGAIN!!!...LOL...after tat jiu go down take bus...LOL...reach sch call baby ask her where is she...den she say she at cafe 1 inside...my mind was like crap...my shirt is going to stink again...den i sit down den baby look at me say my music veri loud..LOL..den i say veri loud meh...den i take out both ear pieces den i listen...i heard no music loh...den i tell her no leh...i nv hear anything..den she say got...den i tell her my MP3 volume i on max...she scold me crazy den say i deaf...LOL...

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same as mon...morning happy...after lunch start to diam diam nv tok and keep haix...today ms tay say next next mon take up message de 12 jiu can go home liao...but make-up de 4 den can go home...not fair loh....haix...hope i can early go home on mon also...

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today lunch did something damn pai seh...i and perlin went to buy drinks...den my left hand taking wallet and phone...so i use my baby finger carry the tray...den in the end my baby finger no strength liao...den i faster put the tray on the table den one of the cup drop...den the ice all drop out...den everyone look at me...LOL...den i jus stand there...LOL...

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was craping after eating...we donno how link link till shh shh topic...LOL...jijinah, baby and perlin plus me was laughing out ass out...LOL...whole day was counting plane...today i spotted 7 planes...i still left 93 planes...hahax...was counting other stuff also...in sch saw 5 outside of sch 4...haix...all i can is envy envy and envy....and keep on haix haix haix and haix...LOL...

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jus now was toking on the phone wif jijinah...she tell me u everyday haix...u one day sure haix more den 20 times de loh...den i was like...haix...wat to do....den suddenly donno why feel like crying...den my tears jus roll down my cheeks...LOL...den i tell myself don cry...LOL...den suddenly start to sneeze like hell...den my nose block!!...LOL...but now okie liao...hahax...

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if i got the chance to be a boy...i swear i wont hurt a gal like heal...i swear i wont bring pain to her...i make sure wat i say i mean it...ca i noe how is hurts to be a gal...it fucking hurts...i really hate being a gal...haix...i really wish boy can fucking understand us...and how painful it is to be a gal...haix...nvm...saying is pointless...guys will nv understand...i shall carry on count my planes and other things...

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tat all for today...

tata~

xiiaOpiiggy ~ the emO gal

2009-07-06T22:08:00.002+08:00

Haix and yawning day!!

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ytd so hard to sleep loh...from 12am plus rolling on my bed till 2am plus...LOL...woke up at 6am...went to bath...was so blur in the morning...LOL...and the freaking water is so damn cold...like ice water...LOL...after tat make - up all jiu go down take bus leh...LOL...

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like usual...morning happy till like shit...but sch end jiu emO till like donno wat FUCK?!?!...sch start i still can crap and laught till stomach pain...-__-...but after sch leh...one word..HAIXXXXXX...have been haix-ing the whole day at sch..from about 12pm plus till now...LOL...and my haix is heavier deeper and louder den before...

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today in class keep on yawn like crazy...yawn till like crying...non-stop...every min sure yawn once...den baby and jijinah pei me yawn...LOL...i yawn den one of them yawn den another den my turn to yawn again...den in the end im the winner...they toking i still yawning...

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i got my time-table liao...hohoho...my sch start at 9am,9am,9am,11am,9am den dismiss is 4pm,5pm,5pm,3.30pm,1pm...LOL...it's better den last term de time-table...LOL...den mon and wed got 2hr break...but baby and jijinah mon got 3hr break...not fair...sob~...LOL...today bring home 5 books...bag super heavy loh...my new book ar...selling skill,small business management,depilatory treatmeant,salon operations and art of make-up...den baby and jijinah only got 4 books...ca make-up ned to learn small business management...and i got many many project to do soon!!...OMG...and i heard alot of subject quite hard to pass..omg die man...like this i mus mus study liao...cant count on my luck to pass liao...haix...

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envy sux...it kills...hate it man..haix...why do i have to envy ppl de alot alot of things leh??...maybe i should keep everything i wan to myself...ca i find it pointless saying out...ca i wont get it??...maybe is i ask to much leh...well i donno...and i don wanna care anymore...it so tiring...well wat ever...now i will totally change my mind...you happy jiu hao...don nid care about how i feel...

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today whold day stomach PAIN!!!...den stupid jijinah tok to my stomach...den the pattern like i got baby in my stomach...LOL...lucky no one there...if not my face can peel off and throw on the floor and step...LOL...hahax...hmmmms...hope tml i wont have to haix leh...i wanna be happy happy...hahax...

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tats all for today bah...

tata~...

xiiaOpiiggy ~ the emO gal

blah blah

2009-07-05T22:06:00.003+08:00

tml start sch liao!!

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haix...tml jiu first day of sch liao...time pass so fast...today washed my sch shoes and socks...cut my finger nails...ca cant keep long nails...LOL...tml sch start at 9am...but waking up at 6am...LOL...den sure before 8.30am or around 8.30am reach sch...LOL...hope tml teacher gif timetable...hahax...hope early dismiss also...last time time table is 9am, 9 am, 8.30am, 9am, 8am...not is everydau 9am only thur 11am...muhahahax...at last got 1 day last start sch...den last time dismiss time is 5pm, 4pm, 6pm and 12pm...hope if tml i get timetable i get to see early dismiss!!

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tml first lesson at lab...i heard is waxing...LOL...good good...i waited for this day for veri long liao...LOL...den tml got 2hr lunch break...but donno for tml only or every mon...if every mon i happy er...shiok loh...LOL...

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joan tell me tml will have alot of books to bring home...haix...hope only got 1 book...PLS...my bag inside got nth already veri heavy liao..den inside got my stuff even more heavy if plus book wahh can DIE man...

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this term i learning make-up...LOL...den my other fren go take message...luck i nv take ca the cream veri oily sure will have pimple on my face de...den i donno heard who say if learn body message top only can wear bra...LOL...crazy ar...i den don wanna...LOL...so make-up is still better...but i think my class and another jan intake de class join together when it's make-up class...hope they wont see me not happy or find me problem...*cross finger*

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tats all for today leh...

tata~

xiiaOpiiggy ~ the emO gal...

i wanna change phone...

2009-07-04T23:27:00.003+08:00

i really wanna change phone!!

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tOday went to orchard...was walking to far east...suddenly saw one black colour de lamborghini gallardo...LOL...he was taking pic of tat stupid car...-___-"...and the freaking owner of tat car wear till like not so rich like tat...LOL...kinda of hard to believe he is the car owner...LOL...he was kinda of show off to me...he open the car door...den stand at one side tok to his gf while smoking...den awhile open the other side of the door so his gf can go in...LOL siar...den i tell him...no gal drive lamborghini gallardo before rite...i be the first one...i go spoil my lamborghini gallardo go make it convertable...den make hot pink in colour...LOL...ppl sure will take pic of my car de...den post at blog say.."this car owner SIAO one...i think her money too much till go and make spoil her lamborghini gallardo..."...LOL...well it's jus a dream...LOL...can come true a not still donno...but if can come true i don think i will actually do this to my car...ca heart pain...LOL...

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after tat went to far east...buy cloths...bought one tee...LOL...the tee super suit me...ca it's please don make me paranoid...LOL..den bought one short short pants...for my dress...ca veri short...LOL...buy liao jus go eat mogu mogu...the cute cute shop...heee...the cartoon chicken so cute loh...the rice bowl also...hahax...the ordering of the food also diff...order and pay money by a machine...i ordered beef bowl...LOL...after tat jiu go home liao...ca my stupid mummy nv bring key...-___-...den at lift my mummy call me...ask me where am i...de i tell her at lift liao...den i tell her i wanna change phone den she hahaha!...LOL...like this morning tell her change phone den she hahaha!...den tok to her half way phone suddenly auto off...den few sec auto off again...den on liao jiu inactive sim...den i off den CANT ON!!!...so i tried taking out the bat and put back den can on liao...LOL...

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haix...den jus now i go fan my mother..keep on ask her tml go bring my change phone den she keep on chagne topic...if not tell me she no money...or ask me own self save den buy...wah lao if i can own self den buy i still nid to go fan her meh...and by the time i save $300 plus liaomy phone rotten liao...haix...sua...jus hope my phone faster faster spolit...cant on or keep on auto restart till can use the phone den i can change my phone...muhahahaha...i wan change to LG KC 910...8GB...8megapixel leh...haix haix haix...SIAN...T___T

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oyar forget to say i break my own record...first time i go out nv go toilet...LOL...i always go out sure will go toilet de...hahax...

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i shall end here...

tata~

xiiaOpiiggy ~ the emO gal

hmm...

2009-07-04T00:33:00.004+08:00

i wanna change phone!!

tOday went to bugis to buy my bag...LOL...finally bought my bag...$30 nah...den my wallet from $47 become $14...LOL...went to bugis junction...LOL...i was super hang lah...i donno why i suddenly i feel stoping there...den i was looking around(was looking from him)den i suddenly heard like ppl spill water on the floor den i look at the flood...den i see the colour weird weird de like vomit...den i look up...LOL...one malay gal vomite...the funniest part is her mother hold her mouth not herself...LOL...den awhile den her mother and father bring her out of the shopping center...den after tat jiu went bugis stress buy my bag...LOL...den jiu take bus80 go home liao...

i wanna change phone...my stupid phone auto restart 4 times today!!...LOL...i wanna change to LG KC910...LOL...my stupid mummy don let me change..sob...i shall keep on fan her till she buy for me...i honly hope she wont scold me...>__<..LOL...ca i fan her...hahax...

tats all for today bahx...

tata~

xiiaOpiiggy ~ the emO gal

wat ever

2009-07-02T23:43:00.004+08:00

Crap day

tOday woke up at 1pm plus...LOL...was raining so heavily...LOL...but donno why jus cant get back to sleep...even when am still tired...

jus now some un-noe num smsed me...saying" wat are you doing? don call me hor..." den i wanted to sms back who are you de...but kana scold...wat ever lah...den now go tell other ppl...LOL...well i don care...^^ ca is not my business anymore...LOL!!

haix...i thought i come out wif an ans leh but why suddenly change leh?? i thought i don nid to think any more leh...but haix...

bOy...am really sorry...i don mean to hurt u...i don mean to play ur feelings...i don mean to waste ur time...but...haix now de me i think i don have the rite to be loved by anyone...ca i don even noe how to love myself...yar hahax...and i hope wat u say is true...aiyo is not i don believe lah...but as u noe lah...ppl always like to say bluf de lah...but i still half believe and half don believe...LOL...but wat i told u is true...if u really make wat u say come true...if am wif u i swear i will love u more den i love anyone...and will nv wanna let u go...

but for now i got to take a break...and hope my broken heart faster faster heal...heee...so i can carry on wif my life...hahax...well lets hope everything can go the way i wan it to be...and soon...ooooh...i cant wait to see myself stand up again...hahax...hope i can also see a happy de me...^^...

i shall end here...

tata~

xiiaOpiiggy ~ the emO gal

haix...

2009-07-01T21:33:00.002+08:00

wat has happen??

why every nite i will feel so emO, feel like crying??...can anyone tell me wat has gone wrong...wat's happening...my heart really feel so locked up...why when i nid someone no one is there for me...haix...will things so smoothly???...will i regret, happy, sad, hurt or wat ever...i donno...i wish i can see who am i wif in 10yrs down the road...haix...so i wont have to suffer so much...thinking everyday letting go or keeping...haix...

no one understands me...ca ur not me...even if i say out how i feels...no one will understand...ca ur not me...ur wont understand the pain i go through...the stress i go through...so pls don say u understand...ca u don...no one understand me unless ur me...

this is not me, this is not the life i wan...why everyone getting away from me slowly...izzt i do something wrong tats why everyone is going away from me...am i really going to be alone soon??...do i really have to face total darkness soon...

i shall stop here...hahax...

tata~

O.o

2009-06-30T22:13:00.006+08:00

Why am i torturing , hurting and making my life miserable??

tOday went to his ah ma de house...his father bought KFC and pizza...after tat jiu take 147 go home...in the bus think alot alot...LOL...was trying to ren my tears...-__-"...was asking myself this question...why am i making my life miserable...why cant i jus come out wif an ans...why i only noe how to hurt ppl...why i always say no one can gif me the stuff i wan...why i always say no one understand me...

maybe is ca i don even understand myself tats why?? i don understand why do i have to think everyday...why the stuff i wan like veri hard to get like tat?? am i really asking for too much?? why ppl will like me...ca i good hearted ca my looks not bad...or ca jus wanna fuck...i really donno siar...why ppl so weird de...both guys and gals...

am trying veri hard to catch my breath...my chest feel so tight...my heart feel so empty...my heart feels like it's been locked up...maybe i should listen to wat sky told me...i asked him some question and he say i should take a break and let my broken heart heal first den fall in love again...maybe i should listen to wat he say??...and yes am still young there is no rush in finding a bf...but i jus nid someone to pei me almost everyday...i noe ur will think frens can wat...but all my frens is guai guai de...all cant go out de or can hardly go out if not is cant go out till late late...den will only ask me out when they nid me...example...one of my I.T.E fren...quarrel wif bf den don wanna stay at home ca don wanna anyhow think den will ask me out de...if not wont de...call also wont call msg also wont msg...only when quarrel wif bf den will come find me...

so i asked myself thing...if i take a break...can i accept being alone??? i don think i can...i nv been alone before...as in at outside eat alone...go window shopping alone...i find it so stupid to go shopping alone...ca if i like something i cant like tell my fren this thing nice rite...and am i super shy person...if i alone and i donno how to go to this place...i rather i go missing den i ask ppl for the way to the place...see wat i mean by i cant be alone??...nvm only i understand myself...LOL...crap ofca i understand myself am me...-__-...wat ever...am jus crapping...

so maybe i should jus let go of both of them...and currently stay single??...aiyo..i donno lah...am so confuse...this is the 3th time i think till head veri pain...like my head wanna bomb...save me someone?!?!...HELLO!!! anyone out there?!?!...hope someone is out there to save me...hahax...LOL...

LOL...wanted to upload the pic i took of me hurting myself...but i delete it den i went to paste it at other folder i forget cant delete den paste...LOL...so it looks like i got to say out wat i did to myself...there is blue black ony my rite knee, 2 blue black on my rite index and midder finger...my head got baluku...my left wrist got my scratch mark and 3 penknife cut...and tat is the first time i bleed the most...the blood was like auto flowing out...but heng stop...if not i now cant sit infront of my com write blog liao...LOL...

anyways...tats all for today...tata~

haix...

2009-06-29T23:30:00.014+08:00

am tired of making empty promise...

am tired of smiling outside, but crying inside...

am tired of laughing out loud when actually i wish to cry out loud...

am tired of hiding...

am tired of saying lie...

am tired of thinking...

am tired of crying...

am tired of EVERYTHING...

am sick of thinking everyday...

am sick of thinking of those useless things...

am sick of thinking and make myself even more stress up...

am sick of emo-ing...

am sick of my emO life...

why do i have to be so confuse now...

am jus like a locked up bird...

injured and got to be locked up...

in a place where is so cold and dark...

when i cry no one noes...

when i hurt myself no one noes...

no matter how hard i tried to run...

i will still be catch back...

i wish everyday is rain heavily...

so tat no matter how hard i cry...

no one noes...

i wish am blind...

i guess if am blind i will be happier...

ca i don get to see wat i don wish to see...

i don get to see hurt...

am screaming deep down inside me...

screaming for help...

but is there anyone out there to save me...

can i ever get out of here...

is there anyone willing to fix my broken heart...

it's really killing me...

i can't stand the pain anymore...

am dying soon...

am giving up soon...

am really tired...

why can't i ans u like how i ans myself last time...

why can't i jus say a yes...

why is the ans now is a donno...

why...

why is my life slowly becoming donno...

where is yes and no...

will they come back to me one day...

or will they nv be back to me again...

i really hate thinking and thinking...

i really hate not believing in anything...

can i really stop thinking one day...

can i really be happy one day...

i really hate hurting ppl...

but why am i hurting ppl wif out me noeing...

i really wanna stop hurting ppl...

maybe me living in this world is the biggest mistake god has made...i only noe how to hurt ppl...i only noe how to be selfish...i only noe how to put all the blame on ppl...am really not as good as u think i am...am not a good hearted gal...ppl stead wif me will nv feel happy...one day they will regret being wif me...ca am worse than a beast...

kill me pls!!...

2009-06-28T20:37:00.008+08:00

kill me pls someone...am dying inside...i really donno wat i wan...let go or choose one...problem is haix...now de me i really feel like i don have the rite to love anyone...i don even noe how to love myself...am hurting myself...i can feel the pain in my heart...it really hurts...

are u really tat good..??...why my bro and mother say till like ur so good...i really donno...so wat if whenever u tok to her i will jealous...ur jus doing it infront of me...and ur giving her everything tat i wan from u in the past...do u noe how it feels when u got to see wat u wan being given away rite in front of ur eyes...and u actually believe wat ever tat she says...wat she nid u gif her...me leh...she nid a listening ear u be her listening ear...i leh...where the fuck are u when i nided u...do u noe because i keep everything to myself tats why today i cant say out my true feelings and thinking...i wish to put all the blame to u...but i cant...i really don wanna be selfish anymore...but can i help it...no i cant...am starting to cant control my emotion...am going crazy soon...

am veri clear...no matter i go wif who i also wont be happy...ca i can nv gif ur wat ur wan...and wat i wan ur might not be able to gif it to me...maybe is ca i asked for too much...i donno...i don understand myself...i really don understand...

there is a wall infront of me...stopping me from me doing wat i wan...i really donno wat to do...i wanna stop all this hurt soon...i wanna stop all this thinking soon...i wanna stop all this stress soon...i hate now de me...i hate the feeling i have in me now...it suxs...

i hide all my tears...

i will nv cry infront of u...

i don wanna let u see the fallen side of me...

but u think am so strong...

jus because i nv cry infront of u...

i hate being alone...

u noe i hate being alone...

but why do u still throw my aside...

even when i most nidded u...

do u noe it hurts to cry alone...

do u noe it hurts when i have to keep everything to myself...

do u noe it hurts when i have to act like am so happy when am not...

do u noe the feeling of u got to tell urself everything...

do u noe the feeling when u nid someone there for u...but there is no one out there for u...and all u can do is cry and cry and cry like an helpless ass...

as time goes by...

i will slowly wake up from my nitemare...

my heart will slowly heal...

my tears will slowly dried up...

my smile will slowly appear...

my heart will slowly stop bleeding...

but when will the day come??

i will wait for the time to come...

i will wait for the day when am all heal...

do i really have to be alone...

who will be out there waiting for me...

who will be out there for me...

who will be out there hoping tat my heart can faster heal...

maybe i should stay single...

i donno...

am afraid of the hurts...

am even more afraid of hurting u...

i really donno why everything has become a lie to me...

i really donno why i jus don dare to believe in anything...

izzt because i think too much...

or is because i totally lost the trust in guys or love???

i really donno...

bOy...do you noe...

i have been always hoping and waiting for the day...

when i get to go out wif u...

but i think it's no point for me to think leh...

ca i noe it wont happen leh...

i really wish i can say out how i feel...

i really wish i can noe wat i really wan...

i really wish i can stop hurting ppl...

including myself...

am really tired...

my heart is breaking everyday...

my heart is bleeding everyday...

i wanna stop all the hurts and bleeding...but can i...i really wanna noe...do i have to fix my broken heart myself...

hhmmmss...

2009-06-27T21:46:00.006+08:00

did not post ytd ca forget plus was chatting on the phone wif ji ji nah...till 2 plus...LOL...

tOday stay at home watch taiwan drama...boring day...LOL...i think 7 plus ji ji nah suddenly msg me...ask me some question about her problem...LOL...but i don understand why she wanna do this to herself...LOL...

am crying out blood soon...

jus like how my heart is crying...

jus like how it's bleeding...

why does almost all love story got to end...

why does almost all love story is a nitemare...

why does almost all love story have an unhappy ending...

why does all love story got to be so hurting and painful...

my heart is all broken into pieces...

it hurts whenever i think of it...

whenever i gently touch it...

i can feel it's bleeding...

it simply hurts...

i wanna stop all this hurt...

is there really someone willing to fix my broken heart...

love hurts...

love is so confusing...

the more u wanna understand it...the more you wont understand it...

the more u don wanna hurt it...the more u will hurt it...

the more u wanna get closer to it...the further it goes...

the more u wanna it to last...the more it wont last...

haix...

2009-06-25T22:29:00.003+08:00

tOday went to far east...LOL...at last bought my pants...but 1 only...-___-...also buy 1 dress 3 tops...hahax...now left my bag haven buy...tml going to buy it bah...i donno...LOL...

cram SUX!!...T__T...it's killing me!!...ROAR!!...haix...currently no cold water for me...LOL...

i don't understand you...

you don't understand me...

what you want, i can't give it to you...

what i want, you can't give it to me...

it's i never give you the chance...

or it's really that we just simply don't understand each other...

i say we are not fated to be together...

but you say we are fated to be together...

is that really true...

am starting to believe it's all a lie...

everything has slowly changed into a lie to me...

am i being panraoid or it's true...

i really donno...

i wanna stop all this...be it lie or nightmare...

no one understands me...

no one can ever understand me...

no one give a damn to my thinking...

no one give a damn to my feelings...

no one give a damn to my loneliness...

no one give a damn to my saddness...

no one give a damn to my tears...

no one care about me...

blah blah...

2009-06-24T21:23:00.002+08:00

tOday de weather so nice to sleep..hahax...i seep till 3pm plus..LOL...veri pig i noe...hahax...wake up brush teeth jiu use com...went to tagged...den check my exam result...LOL...i thought my Effective Communication will fail...LOL...ca i took along time to do...plus i anyhow do...LOL...my Facial Therapy i also thought i will fail...LOL...only Hand and Foot Care i think will pass...ca Hand and Foot Care de class test i always pass de...but today i went to check i was shock and happy...LOL...i get all B for my 3 paper which is Very Good...but i wanna get A...nvm...i will try and get A for the next exam...hahax...so i get a totally GPA 3...WHOOO...so happy...hahax...>__<...

shopped for 2 days...still haven found my bag and pants...haix...sad sad sad...stupid bag and pants...is it really tat hard to find ur...ROAR!!...maybe tml will go out and hunt for them again...-___-"...

holiday ending soon...still got...hmmmss...12 days...OMG...crap...think of going back to sch i SIAN!!...nid to wake up early...still nvm...nid to make up..-__-"...nvm...wat i hate the most is i got to squeeze up the stupid bus 31...sometime even bus 27 i also got to squeeze...den go home sure squeeze de...haix...but i got my frens there...muhahahax...got my baby crap wif me...LOL...den we laugh laugh laugh...den make my other frens laugh also...LOL...i wonder how is their exam...hahax...

tonight i think am going to sleep like a dead pig...LOL...ca the weather nice to sleep...but i veri cold...-___-"...LOL...tats for today...

tata~

haix...

2009-06-23T21:20:00.008+08:00

went to peninsula today..but before tat went to cut hair...LOL...$14...hahax...i cut V and fringe...after tat went to peninsula...nv buy anything ca don have the bag and pants i wan...den after tat jiu take 147 go home leh...

u think am so happy...

but do u noe am actually crying out loud inside...

i believe u donno...

do u noe it's hard to be me...

i believe u donno too...

i wanna stay stress free...

but why do i always have to be stress...

do u noe am bleeding deep down in my heart...

do u noe am crying everynite...

do u noe how i feel...

do u noe how much i really feel like giving up my life...

do u noe how much i hate myself...

do u noe am actually hurting myself...

do u noe how tired i am...

do u noe how much i wish i can jus close my eyes and rest...

do u noe how much i ned a shoulder to lay on...

do u noe how i ned you to be wif me...jus leave me alone if u hate me...

don say things tat u noe u cant do it...

am sick of lies...

am sick of hurts...

am sick of tears...

am sick of crying...no one believe me...

am jus a locked up bird...

is it really tat hard to believe me...

am i really tat not wroth to be trusted...

am sick of everything...

hate me jus leave me alone...

stop hurting me...

hhhmmms...

2009-06-22T22:42:00.008+08:00

tOday went to watch DRAG ME TO HELL...the movie was okie okie loh...am scared of the old woman...*boo hoo*...sobsob...she is so scary can!!...LOL...was scared by the stupid sound effect...whole movie i only really jump up once...LOL...was covering my mouth almost all the time...LOL...i scared i scream...-__-...ca i screamed once...LOL...but tat was about a yr plus ago..LOL...my first scary movie wif him...-__-...haix...after moive went walk walk around vivo...actually wanna go peninsula buy my shorts de...but in the end go bugis...tml den go peninsula...went to bugis street...went there wanna buy bag de...but don have i like de...den i went to look for shorts...also don have i like de...if not is too short...LOL...i mean is like if wanna wear short short why not wear underwear and walk around...why waste money buy a pants tat is almost as short as an underwear...-___-"""...after tat went back to the shopping mall...LOL...went to topshop...saw one underwear...LOL...it cost $13...i mean i nv buy is not ca of the price...ca i noe i sure wont wear it de...ca the underwear veri cute...-__-...pink colour de...LOL...got lace somemore...i stare at the underwear for a long time...LOL...was thinking should i buy mah...but in the end nv buy...nv buy also good lah...ca i still got new undewear haven even touch yet..=X...hahax...den after tat went back to bugis street again...LOL...jus to buy my dress...LOL...bought 2 of it...hahax...after tat jiu take bus home leh...den on the bus one uncle suddenly play Jia Gei Wo...haix...this song make me remember alot alot of things...this song is the song we use to sing together de...haix...was kind of sad when i hear the song...LOL...hahax...ca it make me think back of the past...hhmms...i guess tat's all for today...

*i still don understand myself*~...i will keep on writing this till the day i understand myself...
jus feel like asking myself...WAT THE FUCK U REALLY WAN...dear brain and heart do u noe how i wish i can jus fall...why do u have to make me stand up when u noe i will fall again...haix...wat ever shit...no one cares...even someone cares so wat...i can nv say out my true feelings...will...i only wish to tell meself this...JUS SHUT UP OKIE!!...STOP ACTING LIKE UR SO GOOD OR WAT EVER SHIT...CA UR NOT...

am jus an unwanted kid...

am jus a ball in everyones life...

am tired...inner and outer...

am sick of hiding...

am sick of fake smiles...

am sick of tears...

i jus wanna smile...

is tat really tat hard for me to smile??

jus kill me and let me die...
stab me deep down at my heart and let me bleed to death...

boring~

2009-06-21T20:33:00.008+08:00

LOL...i kinda of hate sat and sun...LOL...ca ytd and today i kana woken up by my mummy they all de toking...-___-...LOL...now so tired...LOL...hahax...

now de me is not me...i donno why now de me weird weird de...i hate now de me...shoo get lost...i wan old de come back...haix...wat happen to me neh??...i really wanna noe why...the reason tat make me change...hmmms...i guess i will nv get to noe why...am starting to donno myself me...starting to not understand myself...i donno even noe how to love myself...can i really love others??...so so many question running around my head...but i jus donno how to say it out...haix...

i wanna be in your life,

YYY

i wanna be there for you for the rest of your life,

YYY

i wanna be the one you nid,

YYY

i wanna be the one you love,

YYY

i wanna be the one you miss,

YYY

i wanna be the one you treasure,
YYY

i wanna be the one tat make you smile,
YYY

am willing to walk wif you as long as you wan me to...

Baby,

i love you,

i ned you,

i miss you,

make it happen...

O5.O7.O9

boring~

2009-06-21T01:17:00.001+08:00

went to vivo to buy sweet and sushi today..LOL...reach home at 12.15am..-__-...used tagged blog jiu off com loh...hahax...i shall blog again tml...

tata~...

booo~

2009-06-19T23:00:00.002+08:00

tOday stayed at home watch taiwan drama LOL...kai ren called me at 6.55pm like tat...ask me wanna go watch movie at PS mah...LOL...i find it stupid lah go watch movie jiu go home...some more i don go out at this time de...LOL...

8pm saw landy de miss call so i called back but donno why no ring ring...LOL...so i msg him...den he call me say some funny funny stuff den i was like huh...wat i do??...den he tell me the story...LOL...was feeling damn bad...=X...haix...so i don really have the mood to tok...LOL...haix haix haix...

my hand wanna break leh...stupid blue black...lightly press the blue black jiu pain like shit...today morning went to coffee shop to buy food...den i push the food den my hand in the puch ppl de shape...LOL...den my mid finger got blue black den i forget i go and push the food...pain loh...the feeling like my mid finger wanna drop off like tat...LOL...haix haix haix....

maybe changing blog skin...jus beca of the tranparency...den the pic i upload cant really see...but i like the blog skin...LOL...so donno wanna change a not...hahax....

bad luck day~

2009-06-18T22:10:00.005+08:00

tOday was watching taiwan drama till happy happy suddenly my father kp me...ask me pack my place...i tell him okie donno how many bloody times leh...den i say i eat leh i will go and pack liao i donno his ear spoilt or wat fuck listen till i say other day...den nvm..he keep on say and say and say den each time he say the tone gets louder and louder...den suddenly walk to com here hit my chair...-___-...den i fuck up...den i say FINE I PACK I PACK!!...den he still carry on say...den i fuck up i throw all my things on the floor...den i tell him u keep on say wait u more angry den angry den wait i tok to u louder only u say i nv gif u respect den beat me again...den he jiu say wat wanna raise ur voice huh...den i super angry liao...den he nicely tok to my father den my father awhile jiu walk away...den my turn to go crazy...i was fucking angry i gave my floor 3 punch...LOL...i even use my both hand to bang the floor...LOL...was thinking alot alot of things...den i donno why i went to bite myself...-___-"""...now still got the mark on my hand...LOL...was crying while hurting myself...LOL...was super angry...okie lah...it's my fault for not packing...but he nid to keep on kp me meh...LOL...at tat point of time this sentence jus pop up in my mind...every bad things sure is me but good things nv is me...i believe if at tat point of time someone make me even more angry i sure go and kill myself...LOL...i was thinking...izzt ca i too stress tats why i will hurt myself...ca i nv like this before...my hand already in pain and swallowen liao but i still go and hit on the floor make it even worst...donno wat i was thinking at tat point of time...haix...

btw this is the pic of my biting...LOL...my hand de blue black in pic cant really see...LOL...

btw today landy told me he nv go work ca he head pain pain plus giddy...i jus hope tat tml he jiu okie leh...hahax...btw i was happy to see the sweet post on his blog...heee...^^

hhmmm...

2009-06-17T22:26:00.002+08:00

went to vivo at 5pm plus...jus to buy the long long sweet...LOL...3 for $10...den after tat went to hougang mall de pasa malam bought ram li burger...LOL...den eat leh jiu go home leh...on the way home bought cup noodle...i went to buy the big big size de cup noodle...act smart...-___-...half an hours pass leh am still so full!!!...crap...i donno wat time i den can sleep...LOL...

stupid landy don wanna tell me he wan my full name for wat...keep on ask me wait...humphs...nvm loh...i wait...BLEH!!!...

Whoooo!!

2009-06-16T21:04:00.005+08:00

YES!!!...my audi finally LVLED UP...WHOOOO...fail the first time...LOL...den pass the 2nd time...hang hang de...all thanx to the FM...lucky tio bad not miss...ca i too early press space le...LOL...

LOL...625 scores left..-___-

YES!!!...pass...thought i will fail de...LOL

forget to uplode this pic..hahax...

my domo handphone pouch

perlin give me de loillpop

this little sofa make me remember when i was young...i once have this little sofa when i was young...i bring wif me where ever i go when am at home...when toilet...i will leave it outside the toilet..hahax

wat happen to me??

2009-06-16T14:09:00.002+08:00

ytd went for class chalet...meet joan at pasir ris MRT...took bus 88 there...reach leh i saw pasa malam went to buy taiwan sausage..LOL...everytime i see pasa malam i sure aim for tat de...-___-...i haven been eating alot of unhealthy food...LOL...mon went to went to xinmin pri and sec sch there de pasa malam...sun went to hougang mall de pasa malam...den ytd went to pasir ris inter de pasa malam...LOL...waited for joan to come...den went to i forget the name leh...i only noe it's at B1...LOL...went to buy fruits...LOL...i and joan don even noe how to choose...-___-...den boguht everything we ned jiu take bus 3 to there leh..wait for teacher to come and give us the ticket if not we have to pay $1...LOL...at first wanted to go swimming de...but i nv bring swimming suit den wanted to go home take de...but in the end nv take...also heng i nv go home take...ca swimming pool close...LOL...my 2 frens change to swimming suit for nth...LOL...one say wanna wear swimming suit go BBQ...LOL...i was so damn sian lah...i lay on the bed and watch tv...but my head is facing the tv...LOL...den my teacher see liao den laugh den say why like tat see...see till so xin ku turn over lah...LOL...den i say nvm lah...i veri sian...LOL...den i awhile jiu get up...den i say let go start the fire bah...veri sian...den my tat 2 fren say yar loh...veri sian..go start fire...LOL...so i and joan plus my 2 other fren help start fire...so only got 4 ppl help start fire...LOL...den make the fire okie liao jus start to BBQ...my fren BBQ chicken i help BBQ crabmeat...LOL...the crabmeat okie liao den i start to auto liao...i go and take fork and jus poke the crabmeat...LOL...but i got feed them okie...so cant say i selfish...LOL...den my class de malay ppl start to come leh...come leh also wont help in the BBQ..jus sit there and wait for the food...sux loh...den my fren give them the burn skin de chicken wing...LOL...i help to start fire plus cook for few hours..-__-...den now my arm de muscle pain...LOL...ytd i only eat hmmms...crabmeat, taiwan sausage, fried rice, chicken curry de potato and fruits...wah...i eat so little but i felt veri veri bloated ytd...LOL...den nite went to buy beer...LOL...i shall skip the story...LOL...den went to the beach no wind de...so so hot...-___-...wanted to go OCH but no bike...haix...sian loh...den nth to do jiu cab home...actually wanna ton there de...but stupid ji ji nah lah...go home wif her bf...den sua loh...i go home also...LOL...reached home head still giddy giddy de...LOL..chat on the phone jiu go wash the dishes den go sleep leh...LOL...washed the dishes wif my giddy giddy de brain...LOL...den go sleep tat time i CANT SLEEP!!...LOL...suddenly feel so damn awake...LOL...but manage to sleep in the end..but woke up in the mid of the nite again...-___-...3th nite leh...woke up den veri hard to go back sleep...den now my brain like in la la land...so easy forget things...msg got some word missing also donno...will i forget who i am one day??...if one day i forget who i am leh how will my world look like...hmmmms...will when tat day come den say bah...LOL...

maybe am jus a gal tat wears a mask to hide my evil side of me

i guess am not tat good after all...

am jus an normal gal....

i don deserve all those good treatments i have now

i guess when i show ur my true colour ur will regret noeing me

ur will regret treating me so good...

let the feelings slowly walk away from me...

and soon i will be left alone...

jus like thoes small little stars on the sky

they nv been notice by anyone...

they nv tell anyone how they feel................

pic will be uplode when my fen sent me the pic...

hhmmms....

2009-06-14T22:39:00.003+08:00

tOday forget wat time wake up leh..hahax...den afternoon slack at home...LOL...watch taiwan drama...den about 5pm plus went to buy food and snacks till 7.20pm plus...LOL...power rite..tat ram li burger de ppl lah...so slow..LOL...i stand there sweating...LOL...i heard hougang mall de pasa malam till this month 18th...LOL...

tml got chalet...maybe staying over nite maybe not...not sure yet...LOL...but if i stay over nite i wanna...i wanna...i wanna...BUY FLAVOURED BEER...think so bah...LOL...don really noe wat's it name...LOL...

tata~...tat's all for today...>_-

yawns

2009-06-13T22:56:00.004+08:00

tOday woke up at 11.15...the alarm ring and i got shock...LOL...jump up from my sleep..-__-...blah blah blah...den went to use com...played audi...LOL...meet an hacker at beat rush battle party...was lucky tat the guy invited me in...LOL...from 100k den plus become 300k den plus...LOL...den log out...den nite went in to play again...hahax...maybe later going back to play again...i donno...jus wanna LVL UP...LOL...well today is freaking boring day...actually today going to swimming de...but raining so cant go...LOL...so BORING!!...LOL

tata...i shall stop here...

anyway...this is the screenshot i took....

look at her score...both NPC de score also cant beat her score...-___-"...

hhmms...

2009-06-12T18:48:00.002+08:00

today should wake up at 6am de...ca ned to reach sch at 8.45am...but den in the end i woke up at 12pm plus..ca of stupid ji ji nah...she ytd at 11 or 12 plus say wanna call me den i tell her later...ca i eating...den she say wat she wanna eat also...den ask me wait...den i wait till 2am plus still haven call...den i really cant stand it leh...so i msg her tell her i go sleep loh...LOL...den morning wake up jiu go back sleep..LOL...super tired lah..-___-...den woke up at 12pm plus...was feeling so tired...LOL...today so boring...stay at home use com...SO BORING!!!...gonna be bored to DEATH...-___-...